Baby Everything

Date: 7/24/2018

I'm a snail in somewhat human form. This is where the baby steps might come in handy. Scroll down if you hate whining. Dealing with fatigue and depression is beyond hard. The last thing I googled ''CIA lessons on how to endure torture". But that didn't help because nobody is keeping me hostage and using torture to get the secrets out. I wish it would be that simple: yes, I ate that last piece of cake! Yes, I took your ice cream! Yes, I bought a bottle of wine and lied about it because you don't like me drinking! Yes yes yes to everything! A thousand times yes!!! What to do when I am a hostage in my own body and mind? I feel trapped in this tired body that hurts everytime I move. Or in my mind full of fears, anxieties, grief, unfulfilled dreams, purposelessness, hurtful memories and all that? Will pill a day keep depression away? Let's give it a shot. You know what? Let's try and make a plan on how to make my existence less of a mess! 1. Keep a basic everyday schedule. ie. wake up, take my pills, walk and feed my dogs twice a day, brush my teeth. 2. When the basic schedule sticks, we can take those baby steps and slowly start adding something else that would better my life and my mood. ie. make my bed in the morning, less laying in bed and more sitting...in bed! Read 3 pages of a book? Go for it! Want a cup of tea? Get all the strength left in your body to get that budunkudunk off the couch and make that damn it! 3. Just do it! Slowly.. Do it babily to become the best slow baby you can be! Good luck, you sexy tired whore..