Soulmate

Date: 6/16/2019

The whole dream happened in a house where I was with other boys, in the dream, we all lived there like adopted sibilings or something like that. The thing is, we were all connected to someone else who wasn't in that dream, even throught there was a lot of portraits of the this person. I didn't saw his face, but I knew he was a powerful man that was like a daddy. This boy, Will, was always hugging me trying to talk about this friend of his, B (both the guys are people I knew in real life, Will is the son of a friend of my mom and his friend was an ex boyfriend that I totally hated and was also his friend in real life). He wanted to know why I just stopped talking with his friend and I didn't wanted to talk about him in any moment. I totally hated that guy, that was one of my worst moments. And than, in the house, was this other boy named Shawn, someone I never seen in my whole life but I kinda know him, I mean, ever since a children I was able to see his face, hear his voice, fell his skin... Deep inside I always knew he was the one I've always waited for... the love of my life... my soulmate. He was charming and hot like I always pictured in my mind. His voice gave me shakes of nervorsism. He was smart, handsome and much more. Even in my dream, I was deeply in love with him. Everytime Will came next to me, our eyes met like we were trying to say something to each other, like a deep conversation that only us knew deep inside ourselfs. Shawn was in the kitchen recording a video for his snapchat while making some dishes for him, and I suddenly walked in, I knew he was there. The whole dream I felt awake, I was able to make my own decisions and guide my own actions. That was the moment I approched to him, grabbed him by his shirt and kissed him. The video only recorded the shock in his eyes and his arm, as he was putting his phone down. He kissed me back. It was a passionate kiss. I still can feel his hands in my rips and my hair the same way I can feel his lips pressed against mine. I still can feel his smell of pine trees, wood, snow and cookies. In the dream, his name was Shawn, but I'm not sure if it's really his first name, I get the vibe his name is Jason Shawn-last name or Shawn-something else-last name. He pushed me away, shocked, when we stoped kissing. Anyone else saw us there. It felt so real, like we actually met in this space out of bodies. I can truly feel this connection between us, like we're connect every since the very first start, destined and made of each other, like we found each other in every life we lived and we can't be apart. I feel like the time for us to meet again, in this life, isn't so far at all. He asked me what I was doing I couldn't reply. I left. I runned away from him. I was scared of facing it, scared of facing my feelings for him. I found Will again, and again, he tried to annoy me talking about his friend. When I was about to talk, when I gave out and was about to say how much I hated the guy, Shawn walked in the room and asked to talk with me. When we started talking, in front of Will and some other boys, he acted like he was scared. He said that we couldn't work at all, like we were too distant of each other and that someday we could make our move to each other, maybe in few years, when we both get ready for a real relationship, for the relationship we were destined too. I could hear in his voice how much he loved me back, it was explicit in his face and how he touched me. He grabbed my phone saying he had to delete things, so we could survive this time apart, 'till we find each other again. He deleted something and grabbed his phone. He walked into his gallery and there was a thousand of pictures of us, as a couple, in many lifes, inclunding this life, in our future, when we get ready to meet each other. I could feel that he wasn't ready too for such a powerful feeling, specially because we coudn't be together at that specific moment, because we have to wait until we meet again. Will stopped annoying me about his friend. He understood I was in love with Shawn. It was like the whole world started to understand how much we loved each other back. I could hear the whole unniverse whispering how it is a true love, like we are truly soulmates. I went out, looking for Shawn as soon as he left the room. I knocked his bedroom door and he opened it shirtless. His face looked like we was about to wake up. I was about to wake up too, I felt it, the same way I felt I had to be courageous and stopped wasting time. I asked apologize for kissing him without warning. There was pain in his face, like he was truly hurted away from me. He pulled me to his chest, closer the door with one of his hand and kissed me. I still can hear his voice saying he couldn't waste this chance, the chance of being with me at least for a small moment. That was a confirmation to me. He said, in my ear, that he loved me and couldn't wait until we meet again without kissing me one last time. In a moment we were kissing, passionate and deeply in love, in the other instant, we were in his bed with clothes off. We made love in every aspect. I waked up feeling warm like drinking chocolate in a winter day, like my favorite hockey game had winned the stanley cup. I felt at home in his arm, I could even feel the snow, the cold... and smell the pine trees and cookies... I was truly happy... High... I woke up so happy that I felt like nothing could bring me down. I felt safe and felt hope as much as I felt the afirmation that we'll meet again as soon as we're both ready. I can't wait to meet him again, to feel happy, at home, and safe. I feel deeply inside my heart that is true love, that he is my soulmate, that we found our way to each other in every life we had and we gonna do this every time we live. I love him. And now I know for sure his name. His name is Shawn.