Sinister People Look Nice

Date: 10/20/2020

My ex gave me a box of things, including a bunch of notebooks that had things written on them. Some were messages from him, and some were messages that I wrote for him in the past. Some had my thoughts about him written on them, including a pros and cons list for deciding whether or not I should stay with him. I went through the box to revisit the memories, and it brought up some old, painful feelings. I felt physical things around me in chaos (physical objects from an apartment in a disheveled state), brought on by his interference in my life. I was in an open area and didn't feel safe, so I thought about taking the box of notebooks into my apartment and locking the door. Later on, my ex was going to drive my sisters or one of my sisters and another girl to the airport. I was worried about them and warned my sister that he might be dangerous. I thought about going along with them but also thought it was a bad idea for me to be alone with him on the way back. I emphasized to my sister that she should take what I said about him very seriously and said something like this: "Sinister people don't look sinister on the surface. They can appear as good people, to hide their true nature."