desire or truth

Date: 4/1/2016

I'm not sure how it began but I was in the band cubby room messing around.. Then I sat down and camryn started rubbing my shoulders. With time she got closer to me and eventually was sitting behind me legs open around mines in shorts so I could feel her legs and wearing a t shirt so as she rubbed my arm with her arms I felt her skin.. It felt beautiful. Smoother than anything I've ever felt.. The sensation made me go in and out of a sleepy daze.. When I realized the situation I realized I wanted her. At that only moment the only thing I could think about was Camryn... WHY?! Why is she so damn important to me? Why am I consistently thinking about her? Yea she's pretty.. Not even a 10 like a 8 with makeup and she's actually trying. Bodies like a 8 as well... She's boring to talk to.. Is this resentment for feeling like she doesn't like me? That would be bad.. I need to meet way more girls.. Fml