Fed Up With Work

Date: 10/27/2018

I was at the hospital, a hospital of some sorts that is as it was all familiar. I was doing my daily rounds but I can’t remember any of the patients. The wards were all distinctly different and...massive! Like industrial building-sized, each. It was almost like I was on auto pilot, doing the same thing over and over. Prescribing medications, talking with families, updating nurses, answering pages...it was monotonous. Then I get a call to see a patient in a ward that is a legit prison. But a huge room, lots of windows so natural light was not lacking, and a sterility that can only be found in certain parts of a hospital. While I checked in through security and I was walking towards where the patient was supposed to be, head down because why else would I look up? Everything is always the same, right? I hear “hey Dr. Rose” to my left. I look up and there are 3 nurses transporting a patient to the ward. I instantly recognize them and feel a deep kindred towards them. Like I worked with them on a different rotation in the past, maybe ER? I even say I’ve missed them and haven’t seen them in so long! They’re dressed in the old fashioned nurse gowns with the hats. 1 is probably in her mid 50s, shoulder length straight dark blonde hair, a little overweight; she feels like the “mom” of the group. The 2nd is more petite, bright blonde hair that is cropped short. She had a bit of an accent, like maybe from somewhere southern, maybe Texan? She is like the big sister & seems to speak what comes to her mind. The 3rd is young, a little younger than I. She has long blonde hair. She smiles all the time & never takes anything too seriously. They ask how I have been, and I can’t help but well up with tears and tell them I am now chief but I hate it. I do the same thing over and over and over again. It’s at this point of the dream that I can physically feel the emotion I am feeling in the dream, and I instantly realize I am dreaming! It’s a lucid dream. But I let it go. I want it to play out. I want to know who these women are!!! I’m racking my brain but I can’t place them. I can honestly say I haven’t worked with them in real life, maybe I saw them on TV? But I don’t think so. The conversation keeps going but it’s in the background now. I can’t tell what their advice is. Instead of being on an elevator, we are on a massive wooden slab on a pulley system. The more I try to focus, the more the “ride” gets out of control. The “mom” of the group is trying to tell me something, but I can’t make out the words. She’s right in front of me but she sounds so far away!!! The youngest is next to me and laughing as if we are on a carnival ride. Then the bottom hits grass and I roll off while they fly away on the “elevator”. Who were they?! What were they trying to tell me?? I wake up. More confused than anything. I remember everything. All of it. Even as I write this more than 14 hours later.