Sudden death

Date: 1/24/2023

You probably could have guessed but I had this dream that my partner died last night. And it was so sudden and it felt so real. I couldn't pull myself out of it. It started with him suddenly collapsing and I rushed him to the hospital and they started running tests on him but they couldn't figure out why he collapsed but then he went into a coma and they had him on life support and they were still running tests and I was in the room the whole time. (In real life I could literally smell the hospital like the sterile smell that it has and the smell of the hand sanitizer) And I was there with him for like two days I slept in the hospital I hadn't eaten anything then I was woken up (in the dream) by the sound of a flat line. And I was screaming for the doctors but they couldn't bring him back and I was just scream crying. And finally I left the hospital and I had to just go back to normal. Like I took a couple weeks off work and moved in with a friend (idk who it was) and I was just expected to like go back to normal. I was so depressed and I kept having panic attacks and I kept thinking if I just wake up he'll be there next to me but I wasn't able to wake up in real life and I was fully convinced that it was real and I just had to go back to normal. I had to work and I was hanging out with friends but it just felt so empty like I was alone even though I was surrounded by people and we had his funeral and I was the one that got his ashes.