Pregnancy nightmare

Date: 10/26/2021

I was suddenly pregnant and in the hospital, my boyfriend was the only one there with me because i didnt want any of my family there. I didnt know i was pregnant before then, i said:" ive been drinking through my whole pregnancy..." my boyfriend said that its okay from a distance. He had put blankets and pillows in the hospital bathtub and closed the door. I was kind of freaking out, touching my belly, kind of in a way happy, but very scared of the actually birthing process especially crowning which is called the fire ring (like actually irl). I was also afraid to be a parent because i dont have a paid job and id probably not have that in a long time especially with a baby it would be on pause. I went to the other bathroom, because there was two in my room. I wanted to take pics of my belly since i didnt have any, but then my belly acted weird which i took as the water breaking soon. I went to my boyfriend, to the bathtub he was laying in and told him i was afraid and if he could please comfort me and hold me, but he wasnt interested. I got upset and pleaded for him to comfort me again and he ignored me on purpose. I got a more angry tone because i was angry and asked again. He then got angry at me and says giving birth is just what all women do and that i dont have to make it a big deal. I was still angry, but actually just upset. He didnt like that and threatned to call my granny, to come here instead cus he had her number. I told him not to do that, because he knows i dont like any of them and they would make it worse for me, i told him i didnt mean to be angry and that im just very scared and just need some comfort and hugging to be kind of okay again, i just needed to be able to rely on him. He called my granny anyway and only told her:" I guess you need to buy a legoset" and hung up. I was so hurt and angry, he had a little smirk on his face. I said that i needed to know he was reliable and going to be a good parent and that this is one of my biggest fears, he was still smirking like he was satisfied with himself. I picked up my phone and said:" what will your parents think of you? Ill tell them about what youre like at a time like this" and i did call his dad, but he didnt pick up. My boyfriend was still smiling so i called his mom, she picked up, but she was in the middle of something and kept talking and i didnt get a word in. My boyfriend is still smiling, my granny started texting me figuring out im pregnant and saying she'll come to the hospital. I ignore her texts and calls and freak out more. I tried texting his mom again, cus if i wasnt going to have his support i knew his mom would be there for me as a woman who has given birth herself, but my boyfriend smacked my phone out my hand and it was unusable after that. I started crying really hard, because the only person that would come was my granny. I felt completely betrayed and alone. I was so scared, uncomfortable and sad. I woke up crying at 4 am.