Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 4/21/2021
By GuppyFang
I was riding on a train in an underground tunnel with a friend. And my dad and my husband. The conductor or some engineer kept leaning out the window and blowing all this black smoke out. I could tell we were all breathing in this horrible smoke because I could feel it. I realize that it was some sort of horrible drug like maybe something mixed with heroin. Everyone just thought it was the regular smoke from the train but I could see and smell the smoke coming out of the conductors mouth as he would blow it out of the train. We were all trapped with all of the secondhand smoke and it was so much of it. But no one would believe me. I was the only one who realized that we were trapped here breathing in this poison and getting messed up. Finally my friend believe me and we got on a big hot air balloon at the next stop. Unfortunately the hot air balloon was filled with shit like hundreds of pounds of it and we were trapped now riding across the sky and the shit filled hot air balloon. It smelled so bad and I wanted to get off. Finally we were able to come to a stop before we were at our destination and I was so happy. But then my mom came up to the balloon, for some reason she was there now, and she started trying to push me back in and push me down into the shit. I resisted and started wailing on her punching her again and again as hard as I could in her face. But she thought it was a game and started pretending to be a monster and laughing and making silly monster noises as I whales on her face. I was desperate to get out of this balloon and I wasn’t letting up. Then I woke up and felt disturbed. * I thought this dream might represent feeling trapped and dehumanized by the hospital and doctors I have to deal with to deliver my baby which is due this coming week. That and my mom and dad keep offering for my mom to come live with us for a week after the baby is born and I don’t feel like that would be a good idea. We are very private people so having to have all these people involved in such an intimate ordeal and in our lives in general is definitely stressful to us.