Lost in Oshkosh

Date: 10/10/2018

Was driving to get to Appleton area and I was in the highway in Oshkosh. The traffic. Was horrendous. It was bumper to bumper I couldn’t t tell when an exit began. I somehow managed to get off the highway and was driving around town. I checked Alyssa’s location to see beers she was exactly. For some reason I was on foot now. I think I thought I could get to her faster she wasnt in Danger. I was also trying to figure out how to get closer on the interstate. It was dark out and I passed by a support group of some kind that healed w singing. I went in the dark building to use the bathroom. It creeped me out so I left. They were trying to recruit me on my way out. I was swerving throu all these parks trying to figure out lobos to get back to interstate. I remember feeling frustrated bc I was so close to Appleton.. now w traffic and getting lost I felt so far from home. Being lost in the dark...I feel like I can’t co trip what’s happening to me, I’m referring to my gut health. It’s been a long journey and I’m not sure what the right thing is to do anymore. I’ve tried so many things. Naturopaths, supplements, diets... I’m underweight, can’t stop pooping. I must accept myself for my spirit, not my body. Love and fully accept myself. Interpretation: Feeling uncertainty or instability in life. Trying to find my way through something that’s making me insecure. Shala? Empty nester in my near future? Trying to get home symbolizes frustration that can’t get something back to normal. I think it’s Alyssa being gone. I miss her so much. The whole dynamic has changed at home. Feels a little empty. How is it going to be when all the kids are gone?? Lonely.. I think. I miss how the Shala used to be. Feeling that they really don’t care about it. I’ve been going their 10 years, it’s comforting, my sanctuary.