I miss you

Date: 1/6/2018

I guess watching Black Mirror before I fell asleep should’ve been enough of a reason to have a crazy dream. Crazy enough for me to log it, at least. But I didn’t expect to see you in it. You came back to life. You appeared as if you weren’t out of our lives for more than a year. You looked the same. It’s been a year, after all. But you gave me a hug and kiss and told me that you missed me. I was bawling and couldn’t let go of you. If I’m like this, how would Julian react? How would your family react? You said the rightful person was in your casket. “Damn right,” I said. Should’ve been him a long time ago. You, of all people, did not deserve to go like that. So young, beautiful, vibrant, with a heart of gold. I fucking miss you, Helene.