Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 3/26/2020
By levinelover
Was standing in front of a couch a Russian man and my ex-mom. I had all the horrible memories of my ex-mom, but the current one in front of me was nice. I was talking to her, and I was holding two ID’s, one was an old expired health card of hers that I kept all the time. The picture on it was from the times she was a cruel heartless bitch. I showed her the ID and asked why she always denied that was her. I knew I couldn’t keep her in my life if she denied what she did to me. I showed the Russian man and told him that it looked like her right? He stood up and looked at it and saw the old date and was surprised cause he expected it to be current. He commented and talked about on how late the card was, but then agreed and said it was her. Then I saw my ex in the room we were in! It was an indoor public space with a couple of couches, a tv, and open space behind us along with a door that opened to another public area next to the exit door. I pretended like I didn’t see him, and started talking to my ex-mom in Farsi to try and impress him (neither of us speak Farsi in real life)((I also haven’t seen her 7 years)). She spoke it fluently and I didn’t, but I spoke the best I could trying to give off the impression it was fluent. While talking she said I word I didn’t know so in Farsi I repeated the word and said “I’m not familiar with that word what does it mean?” Quick as I could to sound fluent. To my surprise my ex was right next to us eavesdropping and actually answered. He clearly recognized me, and with a straight face was answering what the word meant. I looked up at him once he started talking. We made eye contact as he talked, and I found it hard to keep eye contact without looking away, I looked away like 3 times. One of the times I felt like maybe it came across like I didn’t care what he had to say, but likely he didn’t take it that was and just continued talking. In the dream he didn’t have his thick accent and I didn’t notice. Cornel (a nice chill black man who used to be hired to supervise visits with my ex-dad) was there near the couch watching me interact with him, amused. I remember not saying much to my ex after, and staying straight faced and civil. Once we were done talking he walked out into the other area. I looked at Cornel and explained that was my ex. Cornel laughed and said he could tell something was going on by the way we were acting when talking. I explained that was the second time in 2 years we talked (when in real life it would’ve been the first in 4.5). He said he wasn’t surprised and laughed. I told him it was my most significant ex, that it was a toxic relationship but the most intense relationship I ever experienced with a boy. He understood. Then on the other couch there was a guy who I met on bumble or something who was interested in me. He was black and around my age (in real life I’m not into black guys). There was something on the tv with girls with really boy short pixie cut dyed blonde haircuts. I loved the way the looked like they felt in the back, nice and layered/textured. We looked at eachother and he said he loved long hair and would want me to grow mine out. Cornel’s jaw practically dropped and he looked at me knowing I’d go off in self respect. I instantly scoffed at him. I remembered how I grew out my hair for the ex I was just talking too, and hated it. I never wanted to do that for a guy again. I instantly told him “well, that’s too bad. This length right now is perfect for me.” I pointed to the short hair on the tv. I said “the back of my hair used to look like that, it finally grew out to what it is now, and it’s absolutely the perfect length”. I showed him the back of my hair, then ran my fingers through it from the bottom up which I love to do. Cornell was still watching us. I mentioned my other ex who was just here saying something along the lines of he wanted it long but had to accept it short. Which was a lie lol. Anyways I finished off saying I’m clearly attractive weather my hair is long or short, I like it short and I’m attractive still so he would be grateful to have me with short hair. He agreed and said he thought I was attractive and that he’d still date me, that nothing would be a dealbreaker. I asked “nothing?” Thinking about if he’d stay with me if I cheated on him. He didn’t really answer. We started talking about random things. Through the exit door I saw a car driving and through the passenger window I saw a realistic looking creepy doll that looked like a 2-6 year old kid. It also almost looked like she was driving. I pointed it out instantly and how creepy she was. It felt random to bring up, but we talked about it for a bit anyways, how old she looked and how it almost looked like she was driving. I went outside and saw my friend Jade (bigger jade) trapped on top of a Car. I tried to help her, but she said the thin line pressed on her nipples felt good and she wanted to stay put. When she was 6 she wanted badly to drive her moms car, and her mom thought about it and almost let her! Her mom didn’t want to say no, but realized she was pretty much garenteed to crash the car. Her mom decided 10 was an age she could be mindful enough not to crash and told Jade when she was 10 she’d teach her. Then Jade was 10 and wanted to learn, so her mom let her drive. Jade ended up crashing the car into the garage where I saw her. Her nipples were hard and out but she was completely fully clothed everywhere else. I hung around her and looked at her nipples but tried not to get caught looking. She told me about a movie she watched, even though she was trapped the night before she was still home how able to watch a movie with her mom. Then she slept on the car so she was only there for less than a day. She kept moving around under the string like thing to stimulate her, she was happy. I just kept talking to her.