dysphoria 😔

Date: 11/19/2018

oct 4, 2018: I was at school near the comm tech room with Tori and i was talking in the haikyuu @ kimikon group chat and for some reason gillian and ace kept calling me emily?? and i was like “lol my names everett” and gill was like “oh sorry emily” and they just kept calling me that and i got really... sad... anyway so i got off my phone and Tori was like calling me emily or smth and pushing me down the hallway in the rolley chair and i was just kinda like “yeah haha..” and then we were in the foyer and i think natalia and lendsy were there too?? and tori was like “omg you should go to natalias party she has gender neutral bathrooms ..!” and i was like rlly... do i have to be treated like im so... different from u... idk i was so sad :( and i also kept seeing nathan in my dream?? but it was like,, i was there for a second and then i was pulled away again?? im gonna off myself