Drunk Dream

Date: 6/22/2019

TW: Contains mentions of rape. This is super long, but super fucking weird. I had this dream when I was drunk which I didn’t know was possible but okayyyy. Enjoy I guess lol Chloe and I walked inside a random building that looked kind of interesting, and headed towards the bar. Then we saw this temporary sign written in marker on the wall that said “The Anchor” and pointed up a slide that was built into the wall. We recognised the name and knew it was a really exclusive pub. We looked up and there was a man at the top of the slide dressed in really fancy clothes. Chloe started shouting up to him and complimenting him, so then he invited us to climb up the slide. He opened up the hatch at the top for us and we started to climb up to the top. When we got there though he just looked at us like we were filth, started laughing and shut the hatch in our faces. I panicked because I felt really trapped and thought that a hatch was going to close on the end of the slide as well so I tried to get out as fast as possible. At the end of the slide two boys walked in the front door and asked us what building we were in and when I looked up on the wall I saw that it said “UCC Bar And Lounge”, so I told them and they went inside through the main hall. Chloe and I wanted to check it out so we went trough the same hall and sat down on one of the couches that bordered the wall at the back. She went up to go get something from the counter but ended up working on the other side of it and serving people food. I caught her eye to ask her what she was doing but she just shrugged as she served some people at the counter and she looked super confused as well. There was an old man sitting on my right and a younger (but still ~30yr old) man on my left. I felt kinda spooked by the old man because old men always flirt with me ahaha so I talked more to the younger man. He seemed really nice and I was enjoying myself. Suddenly the scene changed and I was getting up off of a random bench in the middle of the city and didn’t know where I was. I started freaking out and trying to figure out where I was when I realised that I had been drugged and raped by the man I was talking to. I completely panicked, and desperately tried to find my way back to where I knew Chloe and I, and the rest of our friends were staying. I was super paranoid and so nervous about any men standing behind me the whole time. I found this random apartment and realised it looked like where we were staying so I walked inside hoping I’d find someone I knew. A delivery man walked up the stairwell behind me and I snapped at him to back off but then felt really bad because he seemed really young and innocent. I noticed that there was name on the package he was delivering and I thought it said Liana so I grabbed it and said “oh that’s mine!” because I thought I’d see the address on it. He just kind of ran off because I looked crazy lmao. I picked up the package and saw it actually said something like “Lijang” so I threw it on the floor and walked into the nearest room I could find which looked like a storage room and just started crying because I was so alone when I needed support. Next second I heard voices coming up the stairs and I recognised them. I started shouting out for Guste and she walked in the door with Dani and Aoife and she was like “oh my god we found you where did you go” etc... When she was close to me I whispered to her what had happened and she just hugged me and said it would be okay. We all walked out of the building and headed back out into the city and l was just in a complete daze the whole time. At some point I realised Chloe was beside me but I couldn’t bring myself to tell her what had happened. She just kept talking to me though even though I wasn’t really replying which was really nice and I super appreciated. She linked arms with me and I grabbed onto her hand, she seemed kind of surprised because I’m not a very touchy felt person but it was okay and we kept walking through the city. Eventually we came up to a riverside and there was a a line of fighter jets all waiting to load onto a huge boat but they were just kind of hovering over the water. Some of them were doing little tricks like rolling over on the spot and they all moved really weirdly like they were UFOs. Chloe and I took out our phones to record it but some military people told us there were no cameras allowed. We walked through a little checking station where we had to put our phones in a machine to check if they were bugged and when they took the backs off of our phones they had little microphones hidden inside them so they got taken out and then our phones were given back. We kept walking through and eventually found this cute little zoo place with loads of animals. Chloe and I couldn’t stop laughing because we kept nearly standing on all these giant bugs that were around us like huge grubs and caterpillars. We kept walking through and eventually found a place that had tigers and lions and stuff but they kept latching onto our legs and wouldn’t let go and it was lowkey really scary so we left and walked through to the back of the zoo. In the back there was an underground kind of rave club where everything was black but the lights were all neon and flashing and it looked really cool but also kind of sketchy haha. Inside I lost Chloe and headed into the back room and just started crying my eyes out, I was completely hysterical and it was awful. A while later Chloe came in and found me, but didn’t ask what was wrong; she just hugged me and waited until I stopped crying. I really wanted to tell her what had happened but I just couldn’t get the words out. We eventually left out the back entrance that had a few flights of stairs up to the surface and I told Chloe to go on without me and I’d be out in a second, and that I just wanted to compose myself. There was a big mirror on the wall and I was just staring at myself all alone in the stairwell. My makeup was awful, there were huge patches around my eyes and streaming all down my neck from where my tears had been running. I just stared at myself in that mirror for what felt like an hour before I finally decided to go up to the surface. That was the end :/ lol I’m fucked up.