A crush

Date: 7/4/2020

I was sitting in a house with many YouTubers as they all talked about work and just had a fun time, there were a few a new and there was this one that I knew but I forgot his name completely but deep down I liked him a lot! I think his name started with a C or his channel did, I was unsure. We all were having a fun time! It was a get together and I felt good being around these people but being around him.. was hard because we were really close friends and have been for a long time but here I am forgetting his name and having a crush on him! It was just horrible but be around him knowing all this! Me and him ended up walking out to the garden area of the house to chat since there were tones of people. We both laid on the lawn chairs out there talked for a long time. We were on the chairs backwards so our legs were up near the head read and our bodies on the long part where your legs go. We were pretty close to each other like we normally were when talking but to me this felt weird since .. I liked him a lot... we both ended up looking at the same bug and when we came back to look at each other .. we kissed by mistake .. when I tell you my body when into fill on failure hahah ... he looked at me shocked “ you kissed me !” He said to me with wide eyes “ n-no ! You kisses me “ I exclaimed with my face turning red. It went silent for a bit and he saw me flustered and hot & bothered so he made fun to try to lighten the mood. We both went inside and I sat next to Markiplier and chatted to get my mind away from what happen.. but the guy I liked.. the friend I liked so much yet forgot his fucking name.. was staring at me the full time with a smirk on his face