Falling apart

Date: 6/2/2017

Winter Cold Vents set at top of wall above door Looks like an air conditioner. Vents open. No wonder its cold. Wall paper coming off Came off when washed? There are holes in the wall The wall is covered in thin sheet of plastic. Very thin (like the plastic dry cleaners use to cover clothes when ready for pick up) Wind blowing through walls Thin plastic sheet is rippling in the cold breeze. Change scene Getting ready for bed Water bed Looking forward to snuggling deep into it. Heated, heavy quilts. Warm and cozy. Buck was there (dead husband) Leaving For work? Large trophy Tucked it in next to me Use for protection. Feel safer now. Anyone who breaks in gets bludgeoned to death. When we first started dating, buck lived in a crappy little house, bed/bath, living room and kitchen. 3 rooms. He worked 3rd shift. I used to spend the night there. He had a waterbed. I was always very nervous being there alone at night. Some nights I would wander from window to window with a butcher knife in hand, jumping at every noise.

AI generated interpretation This dream seems to be reflecting a mix of emotions and memories from your past and present. The imagery of the falling apart walls, cold winter setting, and vents open suggests a feeling of vulnerability, exposure, and perhaps a sense of instability or lack of control in your current life. The thin plastic sheet on the wall being affected by the wind could symbolize a fragile barrier between you and the outside world, indicating feelings of fear or insecurity. The transition to getting ready for bed in a warm and cozy water bed with heavy quilts seems to represent a desire for comfort, safety, and protection. The presence of your deceased husband, Buck, and the large trophy you use for protection could suggest a need for emotional support and a yearning for a sense of security and safety, especially in the face of potential threats or challenges. The reference to your past experiences of feeling nervous and vulnerable when staying at Buck's house and the memory of holding a butcher knife suggest unresolved emotions or fears from the past that may still be influencing your feelings of safety and security in your present life. Overall, this dream may be highlighting your inner conflict between vulnerability and protection, past traumas and current desires for safety and comfort, and the need to address and heal any lingering fears or insecurities from your past experiences. It may be beneficial to reflect on these emotions, acknowledge them, and consider seeking support or therapy to help process and overcome any lingering anxieties from the past.