recent worst nightmare

Date: 8/18/2016

This was a dream I had a few months ago maybe. I was dreaming I was in a new city, something like Chicago but not really, with two of my friends. We were running away together and we'd packed our bags and gotten a van to drive and everything. We were escaping something but in the dream it wasn't clear what. We were going downtown and we went to a mall to get some things we needed. Things seemed fine but then suddenly we were trapped inside the mall. We were cornered. Then people took us to a place a lot like a hospital or mental ward. I was with my friends, so I felt safe enough to protest our capture and I tried to resist them keeping us there. As punishment, I was taken from the room we were in together and put into the hallway. There was a window to the hallway from the room so they could partially see what was happening. A doctor there grabbed me and started to assault me. At first I didn't recognize him but then I saw his face. It was the man who abused me when I was a little kid. I saw him so clearly and I tried to fight him off but he was too strong for me. Again. I felt so weak and overpowered. I screamed but he covered my mouth with his and forced me to kiss him. I could feel his lips on mine even after I woke up. I felt sick. It was like I relived it all. It was so vivid. I woke up just as he was raping me in the dream.