The Polyamorous Scandal

Date: 6/5/2021

So back story. In real life, I’m seeing someone who is polyamorous. I, myself, am monogamous. Obvious issue except we both “compromised” in order to make this work. Their promise was that they wouldn’t date new people while we were together. Right now they’re spending a weekend over at their friend’s. Which I’m okay with—until I had this dream last night. A lot was happening, but to start, my sister came down to visit me and meet my partner. I enjoyed having her there. But I felt awkward. Like I was distancing myself from my partner. I figured I was acting strange over nothing so I attempted to get a kiss from them. We were sitting on the couch and I leaned over and asked (something we normally do if we want to be cute to the other). They said “hold on” and proceeded to pick up their phone. I guess someone had called them. When they smiled and called the other person ‘babe’, I assumed it was one of their girlfriends. But it ended up being the friend that in real life they’re currently spending the weekend with. I didn’t know how to react. I just got up and started sorting laundry. If it was a girlfriend they’d been talking to I’d be upset but not as upset as it being “just a friend” to my face when something else is going on. They found me after the call and gave me a hug from behind, jokingly apologizing for me not getting the kiss. “I feel bad. I don’t want you to have to ask again.” Is what they said. But I was already hurt. My alarm went off while they were hugging me. It felt like they were actually there with me. But now I’m awake and confused and conflicted. Dreams like this often times turn out to be truth, but I don’t want to treat my partner negatively because I dreamt they were cheating. So I’ll keep it to myself and just see what happens.