Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 7/28/2024
By wahblamy
I don't remember all of this one but I really want to record it. I've been hanging out with a friend lately who is going to NA, it's a significant thing that he is back in my real life. In the dream I am invited to one of these meetings. It's in a proper classroom with desks and a teacher/speaker. I feel kind of out of place and very much like I don't need to be there, I think Max wanted me to be there so I decided to give it a go. Some of the folks were definitely trashy and I didn't want people to think of me as having a problem.. I didn't express this, I just felt it. We were given some sheets of paper, passed around the class, to be ready or written on. I felt out of place. I was in this initial meeting and Max hadn't even shown up yet, then after the class began he showed up with a friend and was late. I gave him a look of: "I'm here for you, where were you?!". Then it seemed a bit hectic for a while and then we were all in the halls. A common feeling with people like this in my life. He's somewhere around and I am just talking to other people wanting to be claimed by Max. (The container theory by a long haul). So I'm reluctantly talking to these folks at NA wondering where he is. At one moment a woman or two are talking to me about indigenous culture and they have a strong feeling that I am indigenous and/or very connected to that culture. I felt flattered by this but still uncomfortable. There is a small scene that I am trying so hard to remember where my grandmother came to me and was telling me to move on from Max. It seemed like she was pointing out obvious things and that if I don't move away from him other things won't be able to line up. (When I woke up I was extremely conflicted by this, especially by the time pressure). Then I was in the next meeting of some kind and a poem was being passed around. It was like a really cheesey looking piece of paper, probably with strong religious flair and I could not understand the poem for the life of me. I also felt exasperated for having to be in this meeting at all. I sort of was like "why am I here?". Anyways, the end!