very scary; actual message for me probably 🫤🍋

Date: 3/28/2023

it starts wotb me tallking to my grandparents tberes some type of party at my house my unlce chris is there and jm lookikg at pictures of my gp when they were young and got married at 13/14. anyways evianna calls me and says shes picking up rob and liam and i think there was stuff before this but id remember. anyways i was at home w meryl and shes like bro hes coming over and u look like fuck basically go get ready so i do and then i see her call like pull up and she struggles to parrall but i think it might not be too bad as weve moved on. then liam and evi get out the car holding hands and im lost for words. im like so upset and my grandma makes a fool of them at the door talking ab god and church and i say he i saw sister k at target and liam and i make eye contact but then we drop it then i ask where rob is and they ignore you and evis like wow he really hates u lol and im like??? anyways her and him go into my basement and get weird and im staying where im at bc im afraid then im like ?? wtf yk what and i grab evianna and im like wtf is wrong with you. and shes like oh wtvr im allowed to b w anyone i want blah blah , and im like yeah are im just glad the universe is showing me what a friend you are now rather than later. and she blows up like oh i had him first ypu dont know what your talking about universe this universe that but when i asked you for help you said you didn’t know.. and i started yelling BC I DIDNT KNOW. I KNOW WHATS BEST FOR ME IM NOT FUCKING GOD I DONT KNOW WHAH YOU WANT OR WHATS BEST FOR YOU STOP TREATING ME LIKE A PERSONAL BUDDAH IM JUST TRYING TJ MOVE ON LIKE A TEENAGE GIRL. and i turn to liam and im like can i talk to you please and i take him upstairs to an attic type thing (idk) and evianna follows w a smug look and im pissed but idc so i sit down and (also they were doing inappropriate things) and im like why are you doing this to me liam? and he’s like why do u care who im w lol and and this point i go crazy and grab a bowl of utensils from the table throw them up and throw them so hard at the wall that some of tbe spoons and forks are embedded in the wall like arrows and i even cut my lip on a knife that sliced my mouth. then i sit down and try not to cry and i try to explain to him how i moved on but this wound is still fresh and it hurts and he doesnt give a fuck. so i TURN LUCID AND WAKE UP LIKE UGHH but i go back and im like how long did you feel that way, do you think of me, why do you shut us out, then turn to evianna and go this is the end of our friendship. no house no apartment no roommates no dog no cookies no college no family no nothing. please pack your shit and get out. and she is mad af trying to argue but im lucid so i shut the door on her face using my finger like im el from stranger things and suddenly its just me and liam in the room and hes not even real but i go up to him and i say i just needed closure and i forgive you for what happened in our relationship and i ask if i can give him a hug and then i do, and i look back at him and im like i am still very upset for what happened today please get your things and get out. and i go upstairs leaving him there and looking at the little light’s upstairs before going out on the terrace and just thinking. then i woke up again