The Beach

Date: 10/29/2019

Military installation we were trying to escape I think Solomon and I Found a couple deserters who were stealing from the military so we didn't feel bad shooting them we went to equip our sniper rifle borderlands 3 style (How's your 360 view and we spun) I had to retrieve mine from the box Solomon was already getting his scope ready and didn't see the guy saw us from a Jeep and got this bazooka thing ready I warned Solomon to take cover all I had was like one gun on me not a lot of ammo The guy shoots and blows up his own security power generator thing but also causes rubble so I can't get my guns and ammo. We're on the move to storm the Jeep while their security thing is going off We get to the Jeep and it's on a platform that feels like it's going up then it spins slightly then it becomes an inflatable raft, the Jeep is beamed away. Stuck on raft with these two deserters one was a woman reminded me of Linda Hamilton in Terminator 2 they know we have guns we don't know if they have guns on them. I move close to the woman try getting her to talk about why she deserted what they were doing and how the military company knew they could just get all 4 of us in that one instance they knew the accidental bazooka thing would happen I wasn't listening to her story I was trying to see if she had any weapons the raft is now float on the ocean somewhere or a lake and the lady shows me this knife that was like a slightly curved/twisted slightly icepick she said her father gave it to her. I snatched it from her so fast not to hurt her just didn't trust her with it and she acts like she's glad I stole it she smirks and pulls out another one explaining she always carries two she tries to use the hook end to flick the one I took out of my hand then suddenly I start talking to her like she's an older sibling like: "stahhhhpit I'm not good at that game I always lose and you'll flick it out of my hand but I want to keep it." All 4 of us on this raft for what seems like forever I was so annoyed and stressed and the dream made it so I picked up the raft I was trying to cut out the middle with the knife so we could all swim while holding on to it and move faster to a beach but I ripped the part holding the air but the whole.raft regenerated itself All 3 of them were talking together I was trying tell a story I had a similar knife but it was one you held onto by putting your thumb or finger in a loop instead of having a regular handle. She kept interrupting me before I could finish and make me restart the story it was forever it was so annoying the deserter male Solomon was talking to turned into my dad and started navigating the raft the Linda Hamilton turned into a version of my mom I remember when we'd go to the beach. Tense but I could deal with it. Dad's using binoculars and compasses it feels like we aren't getting anywhere I stand up and we're on this beach its beautiful like something I'd imagine in new Zealand bright fish and coral so pretty. But apparently the dream made it so this seemed like our original spot we got swept away on in this raft from. I said "dad look we're here!" I was happy then I hear him yell "you mean we haven't moved anywhere in 5 hours!!" I was like "apparently not" but didn't know what he was talking about. I dove into the water and held my breath for 5 seconds swam as far down as I could all these beautiful fish... and I came back up again. Apparently in this dream universe each second I swam down with my breath held was 100 ft. I told Solomon and dad it was at least 500ft deep before I could chance it to dive a bit deeper dad's yelling at me "Don't swim so far down again you run out of air and float back up and forget how far down it goes!" Which pissed me off because I hadn't done that at all then the dream showed me that I jumped in a few times first 3 seconds down then 5 seconds down apparently one time I floated back up and it pissed my dad off I couldn't give a measurement of how far down it was. Then after I got to the raft without a measurement he mentioned "and you might drown too" just non chalantly like he didn't care. But I brushed it off because I hadn't drowned I wasn't risking it like that. For some reason it would only be safe to land on the beach according to dad if the lake thing was at least 900 ft deep so I was trying to slowly work up to being able to hold my breath that far down Everytime I jumped I felt confident I could go a little deeper and I did! ....but dad kept making this huffy puffy sound every time I jumped or would make some underneath comment. When he did this I would lose a little confidence and I couldn't go as far down as I wanted or was first prepared for. I was getting ready to jump for a ten second breath hold so we could finally beach this raft in the middle of my jump beginning to start holding my breath before i even hit the water Dad is freaking out telling Solomon I'm drowning. It was before I even hit the water I lose half my breath. I try to slow my dive because I wouldn't have enough air to come back up. I was going to be fine I counted at least 700 ft this beach was beautiful we could make a home here dad sent Solomon down to come get me as if I was drowning but I wasn't. Then Solomon realized I was fine he swam to the beach for some reason he was allowed to after I confirmed that dive. I wanted so bad to get off that raft. I woke up thinking I was taking a nap in the dream before I tried to dive again for dad (the woman character just slowly faded away during the whole thing so it was just my dad and I on the raft ) Solomon waving at us from the beach telling us it's fine take your time etc but dad is promising me it's not right until we know it's 900ft deep and he explained he wasn't trying to make me lose confidence in my dives he was just scared each time I had to dive I explained that just made things worse and tried to explain why can't we just go to the beach Solomon is literally like 25ft away why does it have to be 900ft it's probably like over 1000ft deep anyway and he just said I had to believe him no other reason so I nestled for a nap in dream then just woke up Knew I had to save this dream and now as I type it in crying and it has a lot of themes of actual life for me right now.