Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 1/7/2017
By mooncreature
I should explain the background of the person that I would interact often here. Lets call him Z. Z is a guy that had a crush on me back on the first years of uni. We met when we were in the same group on the college orientation days when I first entered college as a freshman. He's not from the same art faculty, he's an overachieving guy from the Petrol engineering fac. --THE DREAM-- So enter him in my dream. I was about to walk home from a friend's house and i came to this row of markets that sells clothes. And I came to this small quiet garden and met him. we chatted a while and tell us that he had something our group (idk what group, probably was our uni orientation group at that time aka group no. 77) needed to do for the last time. So he told me to call the others. Ok so i call the others and went on to the next scene. The next scene was on a hall, we all wear this white clothes. And we're idk, performing sorta contemporary group performance with these long cloths and all. There were Japanese people. At the end of the show, people claps but i could hear them murmur "i dont understand etc" lmao i dont understand what i danced either. But that was our geoup's last show indeed. We bowed to the audience deeply. Then he hold my hands and said "i need to say something to you" The next scene was, were back at the garden, with the whole group (which is no consisted of people i dont recognize...ok...). It seems to me that the othe people in the group also formed somekind of relationship between others, so they also had their last moments. Theres even like monsters and human-like being. Z wasnt here yet. But im now wearing this silly spacesuit, a fitting spacesuit with a biiig clear helmet. And suddenly, there came a man with Z's face but with long hair and he came from inside a WASHING MACHINE HAHAHAHA WTFF 😂. Hes using the same suit with mine and also with his clear helmet. He came to me smiling (i almost didnt remember how he smiled since i havent seen him since college, just thru messages). He reached to my helmet, he lift it, i was panicking (why??? we're in earth are we? I felt like I was scared that i couldnt breathe). But he calmly lift my spacesuit helmet off while still smiling. *insert epic romantic song here 😂* So i had no helmet on anymore. He mouthed something, but i cant hear a thing. So he took off his helmet too and said "there. Now i can hear you better and you hear me better too". Man in the dream i felt like im about to cry literally. He dive his face to my face and kissed me. His hair was everywhere (idgaf why are they flying but were not in space...) and i was in a state of shock 😂 my hands are still on my sides. It was quite long, the kiss. Then he pulled back. He laughed seeing my face shocked. He said "thank you". I cried and i was going to say im sorry for not trying to contact him. He said its ok, In the end we met again and did something amazing (what..the confusing performance?? 😂). He then placed his helmet on my head. "keep it safe" he said. Then he ran to the washing machine and sit inside (i cant stop laughing when i saw this) and crouched inside the washer. I open the glass part of my helmet and said "you're going to need a helmet" but he said he'll be fine. He then pressed the button on the washing machine and he went spinning. He hit his head at first but he covered it with his hand and laughed a bit and waved at me. He spinned fast and he was gone. I woke up and remembered this dream super clearly. Why him again after years. Was the romantically weird experience so unique and so weirdly intriguing that it kept coming back to my subconscious? Idk. --SIDE STORIES ABT MY LAST CONTACT WITH HIM-- He confessed to me on the last days in uni when i did my final assignment (thru fb messenger HAHA). He clearly told me in funny ways that he got this scholarship to Turkey when he entered Uni but he didnt take it because when he met me he thought his life would become interesting haha. He said he was shocked when he heard i was in a relationship. Kinda crushed him. So he went to make busy with his life and focusing on his student organization. He often tell stories of me to his juniors and organization friends, and i even remembered one of my faculty junior asked me do i know this Z guy (THIS GUY REALLY) I told him i was shocked too when i saw his student body presidential election poster on the parking lot and he's the winning president. Our confessions came out without any awkwardness at all and i was just...Well i dont know. I was already in a relationship with a guy that until now i really love and truly treasure. I remembered i liked Z at the first days of orientation in college but i thought he wasnt the type to like a girl because of his absolutely analytical traits LMAO TF. Probably i was his first crush in Uni. He visited me on my graduation day but didnt say much. He said "why you didnt tell me you had your graduation today??" and i asked him about his freshmen gf he just chuckled. After i started working, on my 24th birthday, we chatted again and he told me he had broken up with his young gf and we did a long chat about our dreams and ambitions after work. After that he told me he sent this excel file to my email. And the excel file was amazing. I had to click a button on a cell..then the rest of the cells in the excel file became a drawing of a girl who said "Nandi, i support you on making your own studio!". He developed this drawing on an excel file...... ✨😂 Interesting guy really. After that, i heard he entered Antam (a govt mining company), got a new gf. I never heard of him anymore and never...talk to him again. We said hello to eachother again every ied fitr and new year and his birthday, but really just congratulatory message, and contact stopped totally after early 2015.