why so many Adam leaving me dreams.

Date: 3/9/2017

so yet again Adam left me. I ended up with my ex husband. I kept trying to fall in love with him but it just wasn't happening. I kept remembering how Adams hand felt in mine and how it felt to be held by him. how our kisses left me breathless. I explained to my ex husband that I could never love him like I did Adam and he said he didn't care he was just happy to have me back and I cringed and was so dissatisfied with life. My heart was so broke so I tried to kill myself and woke up before I died.