Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 9/29/2020
By NiceDream
I had a lucid dream in which I decided to go back in time to ask out the girl i had a massive crush on in school but never asked out. In the dream I had the ability to inhabit and control the body of my past self. I picked a time and place I knew I would have a chance to speak to her (the chemistry class where we used to sit together) and visualised the room and suddenly I was there. I'm amazed at how clear and realistic it was - it was like I was really in that room again even though I hadn't thought about it in years. I was in the middle of a lesson and sat right next to my crush. Unfortunately I'm still really bad at asking people out, so even having 10 extra years of experience wasn't much help to me. I decided the best thing to do was to write a note and pass it to her (this is the sort of thing we used to do anyway) explaining how I felt. Annoyingly, no matter how many times I tried, the note always ended up being complete nonsense. Eventually the bell rang for the end of the lesson and I gave up on the note. My only option left was to tell her face to face, an idea which filled me with as much anxiety as it always did IRL (why did this part have to be so realistic 😣). As everyone was leaving i pulled her aside and said I needed to tell her something. I managed to stutter out my confession, with great difficulty. She suddenly became awkward and uncomfortable and gave an unkind response. Her exact reaction was unclear as I started to wake up at this point, perhaps because the anxiety of the situation was too much for me to handle. The fact that she reacted unkindly is really weird, as I'm sure it would have been fine if I had ever actually asked her IRL. It was probably just my insecurity and self-doubt manifesting itself through her.