love storm

Date: 2/20/2019

i had one dream where i was at an indoor track and i was super stressed because i was running the 600 but then i started thinking wait i’m suppose to be in off season so everything changed to some weird altered WAMS school gym. from there i ended up in some theater which was also a party which was also a youth group event? i sat next to the guy who reminded me of ryan mccartan and we sat and talked for like hours. we exchanged phones and were going through each other’s phones until at one point we ended up sitting really close. we were all smiley and happy and i leaned in and right before our lips met johnny burst in and said that the party was over. the boy turned to me and said something like “always at the worst time.” next thing you know, i’m still dreaming, but i wake up in a slightly altered version of my bedroom and i go on my phone to see if i got the guy’s number or anything and i find he posted some video of me kissing his cheek onto my instagram and at first i was panicking like oh my gosh this guy ruined my life but then i looked at it more and found it was some other girl. his girlfriend. and i was heartbroken! i’m guessing it’s just paralleling my feelings from real life. anyways, i then woke up in the real world and fell asleep again only to be brought back into dream world. this time we were staying in some old house by the ocean and there was a big storm. the waves were so tall you couldn’t see the sky and the wind and rain was violent. although nothing crashes down. it was all perfectly normal for storms like that? ana and i think erin were there with me questioning the storm but my dad kept saying it’s okay. then i sort of “woke up” again outside “my house”. it wasn’t my house. looked nothing like it. so i knew i was dreaming but it felt so real! i kept saying “i’m dreaming i have to wake up!” but no one believed me. i kept pouring water on myself or stretching out my muscles. nothing worked. after that i remember some vampire like disease had broken out and this teenage boy was attacking me. but i kicked him off and ran up some stairs to another house. in there i found some homeless guy who wasn’t infected and said he’d shelter me. we moved out of the house and it was sunny but there was slushey snow on the ground and a trail of tracks i assumed to be his leading to te house. in the woods i saw a girl and a horse. she rode up to us and she also appeared to be disheveled. she said that the nearby water was for the horse. it was a small stubby white pony.