Learning Why I'm So Weird

Date: 3/9/2021

Contest. Lots of folding and building of something. I lost but learned for next time. Realize I actually loved my mother as a kid. Despite it all she was trying to protect me, not all her lessons were bad. One or two could be used to win the contest. ~ I was born in Oregon. Some dude from California was teaching people, like inspirational speaker, how to move on and socialize. He sent minions that were old ladies (dead) turned into these wet yellow monstrous things with beaks... They self destructed at his will. He was also odd, but people liked him. I thought he was evil at first. Turned out the group helped. There was a boy, Icarus, who was my friend. Or Hercules, like the Disney version TV show, and time had parted them, and Hercules/me was just so unsocialized. Then with the friend suddenly it was better. He got good grades, was relatively happy and rounded. Without the friend he couldn't manage to get any grades, was seen as odd, was so terribly lonely it hurt, and became bitter and almost cruel. Life rightened with a friend. I realized if Harry Potter had had no friends that's what he would have become. ~ I'm really intelligent at a new university, but people haven't taken to me yet. I strike up a conversation with someone carrying around a sacred Buddhist book, having dismissed its information because they looked at it logically. I informed them how to read it and we had a nice conversation. I tried to converse more. I tried to gift one of the jade (thick like 3 inches) plates from my lunch bag to the girl. And she was a girl. A very smart child. But she didn't want to associate with strangers. I offered her several permutations of a get together in a public place or meeting at her place (where her parents were) but nothing worked. She didn't want to know me. She didn't want any of the beautiful Jade. ~ Saw an owl (bat: it was a bat but I typed owl and my entire body turned to goosebumps for three minutes, no exaggeration) person stating at me when I almost woke up, someone saying my house was haunted. It was a picture of the creature perched in the crook of some trees in a dark forest, peering down at me head tilted. It freaked me me out. It seemed normal. I like it was meant to be true. I like bats. It looked like a bat head in a person. I wasn't that bothered, well pretended. After all bat energy is my thing. I went back to sleep. Someone said my house was haunted by my ex still pretending to be my girlfriend. Taking up that place. That's why I couldn't move on. The house is literally home to the energy. Like she's an invisible grey ghost here. I felt someone was there sitting to my right side while I slept.