Cruel

Date: 7/7/2018

I’m near a field, it’s dark out, there’s bleachers, the school football team is about to play, all of my school mates are on the bleachers, my two friends find me, we sit on the bleachers, I look around for Jesus, he’s on the other side with his friends, not even worried about me or what I’m doing, I couldn’t find my friends anymore, everyone was up ready to leave and my friends forgot about me and left me, I stood on the bleachers, seen some of my friends on the football team, I went to talk to them, asked them if they knew where Jesus went, they didn’t. He stopped answering my texts, I found his Instagram with a picture of him lying on a girls lap with the caption “ I love my mom ♥️” he says goofy things like that, I clicked to see the girl tagged, and it was a young girl, that almost sure he was talking to now, he was forgetting about me, we are in a relationship he was just leaving me like nothing, I left out with some friends that where known as rebels, they where taking care of me like I was their little sister, I can’t remember there faces, but one was Felix, he was taking me everywhere to meet different people that rode bikes, did mean tricks, dangerous ones, we all walked up to a a hotel room, and i wanted to go outside, I took a bike and left, they stared at me leave, they knew I wasn’t okay, but I didn’t want to talk to anyone, I rode my bike out side of the hotel room and there was a lot of tables outside and people, I saw my friends in the football team, Jordan, nino , and benji, I sat next to Jordan, and Jordan and me where always close, I told him what was up, I lashed on the table resting my face on my arm with puppy dog eyes ready to tear up, I was like a child, my heart was feeling broken, no sign of Jesus and I don’t think he even cared, they then told me the mean things he had said, that i was too clingy, I wanted too much of him, he never mentioned he wanted someone else to them, but they find out, my tears came down non stop, I was going to go up to the restroom but I didn’t want anyone to see me crying, I put my hoody on and didn’t say anything, it covered my eyes but tears kept running down my cheeks, nino hugged me but it made me want to cry more, I just layed my head on Jordan’s arm while I tried t get the tears to stop, and he let me, they changed the subject, giving me a chance to contain my thoughts.