Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 10/18/2016
By Purple
I don't recall the order of how things unfolded in my dream, but here is how it generally went. I noticed mom had given a homeless person a $10 bill. This man was doing nothing and received a reward for it. Then I learned mom gave more money to another down and out person. I was appalled and angered. I shared my anger with Tommy (my brother), who actually was somewhere between neutral and being on mom's side. There was a teenage girl near us, and I don't know who she was in my dream. (Upon waking, I think she symbolized my niece, who is almost 9.) She saw what I wrote and heard what I said, then carefully expressed her opinion that she thought they were right. She didn't say I was wrong, so that was an interesting twist on how I saw things. My brother and I got into a full-blown argument about what happened, with the philosophy behind each perspective. Shortly after, I went to apologize to my brother, but not because I thought he was right. I apologized to keep the peace between us. He also apologized to me, but the reason is fuzzy in my memory now. Upon waking, when thinking about the dream, I realized the homeless people was residual of what I see daily in New York City, and that my friend and I were just discussing homelessness two days ago. My heart bleeds for the truly downtrodden, (but not for the kids who look like they just need to apologize to their parents and get on with life). I have been really looking at homeless people and I think it breaks my heart and makes me angry that they got to this point on their own and that society ignores them. Plus, I have a friend who is facing eviction in a few days. It's just a really sad reality. Also, upon waking, I thought about the happiness factor: mom and Tommy lead much happier and more fulfilling lives than I have been doing. I do give to people who I feel are needy, but I suspect not nearly as much as the rest of my family does. It was really eye opening to me and a lesson that I should be more compassionate toward homeless people and more giving and generous of my time, my heart and my money.