Cancer

Date: 2/19/2019

I was in a park called: de Efteling. It's a dutch version of Disneyland. I actually really hate the Efteling but I was there with my best friend and my ex's nephew, who btw is the most adorable thing you've ever seen. So we we're walking around the park and going on different rides. I squished Ben's chubby cheeks together with one hand and said something, can't remember what. And then I suddenly fainted. I woke up at the nursery station of the park. Shocked as asked the two nurses (one fat with gray hair, the other normally sized with long blond hair) what was going on, why i fainted. The fat one told me that it was because of my condition, you know what I mean. Her face was scrunched. I looked at her and her colleague one by one, confused about what this condition was. The blonde one squinted her eyes at me and asked: you know the heart cancer? We tested you blood to see if you had too little white blood cells and it showed us you have cancer. I was shocked and a few tears started to accumulate in my eyes. My first thought was Godverdomme, my second thought was just pure panick, my third thought was acceptance. This had to happen to me, maybe I deserve it. We brought back Ben to my ex's house and I talked a bit to my ex. About life, nothing special. He seemed sad but content. I didn't tell him about "my condition". After I said goodbye to his mom me and my best friend took the train home. I might have died on the was back. Or I was sleeping. But what I do know is that the train stopped in my sisters town, Eindhoven.