Dream I was anal raped in the shower

Date: 5/4/2019

Well I hade a dream I was anal raped in the shower but hade no feeling and emotional to this like I was numb out and well then my dream came to being paranoid around teenger mad anger towards thsees people and like I wanted to be alone then I was texting mark my nebior and I hourd a men voice saying that I should not be afaid of hem and he was texting me I need to do this to make bread and butter felt better about my old room but then I became friends with those people the made me a dress and said that the pink light pink heart is for forgiveness then I was wearing it feeling better