Coffee Shop

Date: 3/22/2023

Irl, my fiancé (female) works at a coffee shop. In the dream, I (male) started texting with an attractive coworker of hers in a flirtatious way. This person does not exist irl. But in the dream they were maybe half Chinese and half white, slightly older than me, short black hair. Through text we set up that she would come over to hang out when my fiancé was at work at the coffee stand. I came back home to a place that doesn’t exist irl, and fiancé was lying on the ground saying her stomach hurt and she was throwing up. Before I had time to text the Chinese girl and tell her not to come over, she walked in the front door. It was strange, I was unsure if my fiancé knew. But i suddenly got the creeping horrible despair of guilt and regret. I wanted the Chinese girl to go away forever and definitely tried to lie my way out of the situation. I left the two women and went to my grandmas house. There, for some reason I tried to take a bath with jeans still on. The jeans were sticking to my legs and horribly uncomfortable and clingy. When I got out of the bath, in the mirror my face was covered with almost boil like zits. My cousins voice called out to me (my 10 year old male cousin) to play, but my grandma called him back and said I was busy and not to bother me. All I could think was that I prayed that the Chinese girl didn’t show my fiancé our flirtatious texts. I was thinking that because I hadn’t done anything physical yet, as long as my fiancé didn’t know I could save her from getting hurt and I wouldn’t have to tell her. I went back home and parked in the garage. And she opened the door and I could see in her eyes she knew I had intended to cheat that day. And her eyes were wild, like on fire. I could feel our relationship was over and I felt so terribly guilty and stupid. I also felt the spiral of still loving her but knowing I ruined it. Woke up irl to my fiancé shaking me telling me she was throwing up. And so relieved and grateful that I hadn’t cheated irl. I’m a little disturbed by the dream. Trying to look inward and feel out what it means. I don’t get the indication it’s about my relationship, I think it’s a warning about work.