Roll Out

Date: 4/13/2021

In the first part I am at the farm and hanging out with Sarah as she finishes cleaning up the last vegetables and packs them for transport to the market. There was celery and fennel which was exciting but I noted that she was doing everything herself and there was no help. It was dark out now and we had to get back to the city. We had some conversation about stresses and Sarah had a dark worm that lived under her skin and would pop up at different moments. It was like a leech and was impossible to catch. It would pop through the skin and you could try and grab it but it was slippery and quick. Sarah seemed well adjusted to her worm. Zoë and I got into a pick up truck with our 4 or 5 bins of veggies. There was also a massive metal scoop from an excavator in the bed of the truck as well. I think the truck was light blue too. Zoë is driving and it's very dark out and a bit wet and windy. On the highway ahead I see a car that has been blown sideways and totally stops in the road. I tell Zoë and she sort of says "this just happens when it's windy", accepting it and continuing to drive towards it. As soon as we get to the strong wind the truck is blown to the side and INTENSELY rolled over. Over and over and over like 30 times. I remember distinctively praying for my life and accepting death as this scary thing happened. I knew that all of Sarah's hard work had been lost and we lost the scoop as well. After the accident I felt extremely hurt, emotionally hurt, like I had been slighted. Now I am in town and I'm going to Dad's place...or I am going to see my dad. It's like he is a big shot amongst all his friends and it's at a bar or something. I'm looking to him for support after the incident but he doesn't seem to want to dwell on it. I feel like I need attention and recognition, so I leave. I wander around town for a while feeling sad and forlorn. Dang..I can't remember the rest! The end I guess!