False Awakening

Date: 11/7/2017

Okay this happened last name night and I only remember parts of it. I was able to fall asleep and slip into a lucid dream. But it was the weirdest dream, almost like a nightmare. I was trying to have a sexual dream with someone.. but always ended up being in this place. I can't even remember the place anymore but I remember waking up inside that dream and then waking up again and again, this happened around 3 times and fucked with me. I remember one point when I truly understood what a lucid dream was. I thought I had lucid dreamed before, I really hadn't. Everything felt so.. real. I can honestly say that it felt like real life, everything was clear. It all felt so real, but when I woke up, it was like reality hit me. I remember I was trying to get someone to give me a blowjob buy it wasn't working too well. The overall vibe of the dream was something I can only describe as sinister. It's one of those "suicidal depression" feelings. Like "lavender town syndrome" for some reason, it gives me that feeling. I know to the reader that doesn't make sense but to me it makes perfect sense what I'm trying to describe. I want to dream like this again though, I think this was my first somewhat lucid dream in terms of consciously getting into a dream transition and the clarity of it all, it was crystal clear.