Better

Date: 7/31/2020

I had a dream that I was in some part of New York and I went into this huge show that was in some place/church and there was an event going on and my mom was there I think serving people food as a volunteer. Before going here though I was home with my dad (I guess in my dream my dad and mom were still married and unhappy) and I was on the bed with my dad and we were talking. And he keeps being rude to my mom and he keeps touching me a little TOO much for my liking. And I think that’s when I decided to leave and go to where my mom was at. So I get there pretty quickly and I get on the elevator to go up to wherever my mom is. I get there and there’s a lot of people. I eventually find my mom and I stay with her. My dad decides to then show up and he’s drunk. And I try to maintain him while out. He started talking shit about my mom and expects her to cater to his every need. And at one point my mom starts to take care of him. But I get her to stop and I start arguing with my dad because again he’s STILL touching me and making me feel uncomfortable. I believe he tried to get inside my pants and I pushed him into a crowd. And I think I yell at him and I try to refrain from doing that because I know he has a bad heart. And he turns around to look at me and pretty much challenges me. And I tell him “I don’t want to fight you because you have a bad heart!” So I eventually leave the crowd and I gather all the moms including mine and have them sit down in this nook. At this point I know we were at my old church because the moms there were all people from church. There kids tried to join them, but I told them they must leave. Some of the older kids tried to stay but I told they had to leave too. So they left and I had the moms alone. I told them “I’m sorry and I know we don’t always act like it and show it but we care and love you and I apologize for not saying that enough” but I was cut off by one of the moms that I know her name is Bernice. And she says “oh!! Oh...it’s okay! We know how you all feel. You don’t have to say it!” And by this point my tears are swelling up in my eyes and I felt like it was a waste of time to call for them. Because I had nothing else to say. I was going to talk about the dads but decided not to because a lot of these moms were in love with their spouse. So I just walked away with no warning. And in a back room somewhere, there a little book store with a bunch of random little knick knacks. I looked around and some random erasers of all the shows I’ve watched. And then I seen an exit that lead outside. So I checked my pockets to make sure I had my phone on me and I left. The sun was setting and it was getting a little dark. So I walked around the building with no idea where I was going. But I see at least 6 white men where white shirts that had black graffiti on them and was holding a think a confederate flag. They were white supremacists. And unphased I just looked at them and laughed and kept on my way. I heard one that looks like the dumbest out of all them say “ugh stupid black people” with such disgust. And that’s when a woman started arguing with them. But I kept walking and decided to go inside this building I wear I see this lady. She’s helping people climb a wall that has clear shelves that act as ladders. I walk over to her just as a boy started climbing the wall. And I meant to ask her for help but she’s insisting on me to climb the wall so I do....well attempt to. But EVERYTIME I put my foot down onto the first shelf it slightly bends and doesn’t seem like it’ll hold my weight. And also my foot looked like a mans foot. They were huge and in a pair of black Sneakers that I don’t own. Eventually a girl goes up next to me and try’s to climb and does so successfully. And the lady that is monitoring this is coaching me and telling me “do you think our ancestors had time for hesitation??” Which made me realize why I needed to get back to my mom. I was worried the white supremacists were gonna do something to the church. So I asked the lady where the church was and she tells me to get on the elevator and go down. I was confused because last time I went on the elevator and went up. But I didn’t question it and I run past and get on the elevator and as I run past I see a sign for “HempCo” (a weed dispensary). I’m on the elevator and I go down. But then my dream ended. THE END.