Wow

Date: 12/26/2018

I had a dream that I was invited to be apart this random get together with a bunch of people I didn't know but my ex, Sean, knows. And they were texting me and trying to call me to plan stuff out and and they tried to face time me once and I picked up by accident and immediately hung up because I didn't wanna be apart of it. So the day comes for this get together. And apparently I'm the one who is hosting this thing. So all of these random people show up. I let them go upstairs and i tell them to enjoy themselves. My mother tells them to "listen to shakira now." And leaves. I speak to a few people and pretty much the party is a Wii tournament type party. So I leave and go downstairs. Some time passes and I notice that people are starting to leave. So I guess the thing is over. I was eyeing people as they walked out the door to make sure they didn't steal shit from me. And then later I went upstairs and some people were still there. And I noticed that Kymani was there and Kiara was there too. And I looked over a railing and I asked rhetorically "kiara! You were here?!" And she looks up at me ignores me and leaves. And then Sean comes. I guess we're dating. And he sees Kymani. And he greets him with that dap that black people do. And talk to him for a minute. Then Sean comes to me. And we hug and we talk about what happened at the party. And then we leave. I'm assuming we lived in New York. And we went to this small café. And we was going to sit down and eat. But something happened. I can't remember what. But all I know is Sean kept saying that he loved me and that he would never find anyone like me. And how much he wanted show me how much he loves me. So we get up to leave the cafe and head to his place with our brown to go boxes of untouched food. And we are in a lobby of some apartment in New York. And he goes to get his mail from the PO Box. And we're talking. Like at this point Sean and I want to have sex. And we are kind of all over each other. So we get to his place. Which winds up being my old room in the house we used to live in CT. And he closes the door. And immediately we started kissing. And we were on the bed. And I was underneath him and I arched my back and he grabbed me and told me how bad he wanted me. And so I sat up and took off my sweater and he took his shirt off and we started kissing again. And he kept pinning my arms down and wouldn't let me touch him. Which drove me crazy 😜. So like my body started to turn and my legs were off the bed and we were positioned across the bed. And Sean was still over me. And said "it's not going down that way" and I laughed and said "my body seems to want to." And then you got off me and moved my body back to where it should be. And got back over me. And then it hit me that Sean has a mother and sister. And I asked "where's your mom and sister?" And he responds that they were in some place in CT. And said that it was 45 minutes away. And we get back to kissing and he continues to pin my arms down and he kisses all over my neck and body. At this point I'm shaking uncontrollably out of pleasure and we still haven't even had sex yet. And then all of a sudden a knock comes to the door. And we jump up and I look underneath the door from where I'm at and notice that it's a pair of brown heels and vans on the other side. I was like "I thought you said they wouldn't be here!" And your mom is like "SEAN! Why is the door locked and is someone in there?" And you stay quiet and I stay quiet. And your mom is like "shakira are you in there?” I hesitated for a moment and was like "heyyy" And her tone changed and was like "heyyy honeyyy" So I'm trying to put my pants back on. And she's like "okay I'm coming in"....I don't even have my top on. And we both yell "no!" And I made up a lie saying "I'm on my period and it went through and I'm changing my clothes and I don't want y'all to see." And she says "okay then, I'll wait" So for some reason I’m moving slow to put my shirt on. And I got on a white shirt and didn't realize it. And she's like "okay I'm coming in now." And we let her cuz we are all dressed. Sean is just shirtless which is typical. And then they come in and Sean’s Sister and Him and me was messing around. And I think that's how that ended. Us not having sex and almost getting caught 👌🏾