Wrestling with a shadow

Date: 7/22/2023

I don't know what to say. I'm writing this in the middle of the night, woken up from a nightmare, laying on my bed ,afraid to turn the lights off. The dream was full of random things in a dark theme with a climax of a long wrestling with my sleep paralysis demon. I found myself coming out of a church. It was dark like in a DC movie, probably a cloudy dusk time. I slipped and fell down at the steps of the church. There were few people around, but nobody cared to look. As I stood up and walked away, a woman told me to light a candle before leaving. I saw a girl lighting a lamp in the middle of many unlighted candles. I thought I should light one of them. But the girl didn't allow. She told me to buy candles for myself. Then I remember me standing in a tution class. The sunlight was dim outside the window. I thought it was because I was wearing sunglasses. So that I removed and found out that it wasn't sunglasses, but just plain glasses. The light was still dim, probably the night is approaching. As I stood there thinking about it, a girl hit my body with hers and walked away. My glasses broke. It was actually a gift. I felt intense sorrow and anger. Then what i can remember is me struggling to get up from bed. I try to lift me up with my maximum strength, but a shadow man drags me down back to bed. The room was dark and i could barely see anything. I struggled a lot to get me loose off the shadow. Suddenly I found myself vertically standing and not lying down. I couldn't see anything, so I touched everything I could find and realised I'm leaning on my table. I desperately tried to switch on the lights but the shadow keeps pulling my arms back. The fear grew into anger and i hit the shadow. But my hand only moved halfway. My hits didn't fall on him. I struggled and wrestled for atleast 10 minutes with the shadow to touch the switch and turn the lights on. Then somehow I woke up and found myself on my bed. I immediately stood up and turned the lights on. Now I'm afraid to turn it off.

AI generated interpretation Dreams can be highly subjective and personal, so the following analysis is based on common symbolism and psychological interpretations, and may not fully capture all aspects of your dream. It is important to remember that only you can truly interpret the meaning of your dream. Your dream begins in a dark and ominous setting, symbolized by the church and the cloudy dusk. This could represent feelings of uncertainty, fear, or spiritual confusion in your waking life. The slip and fall suggests vulnerability and perhaps a loss of control. The people around you not caring to look may reflect a sense of isolation or feeling unseen by others. The request to light a candle before leaving the church symbolizes a desire for guidance or illumination in your life. However, the girl denying you the opportunity may represent a perceived disapproval or restriction in being able to find this guidance externally. It suggests that you may need to seek your own internal sources of light and guidance. The transition to the tuition class may symbolize a shift in focus or learning in your waking life. The dim sunlight and the breaking of your glasses could indicate a difficulty seeing things clearly or experiencing a loss of perspective. The intense sorrow and anger felt at the breaking of the glasses might signify a deep emotional response to feeling hindered or deprived of something valuable. The climax of the dream involves your struggle with a shadow figure. This could represent your sleep paralysis demon or a metaphorical representation of your own fears and inner conflicts. The darkness and inability to see clearly in the room could symbolize a sense of confusion or being in the unknown. Your struggle to get up and the shadow dragging you down suggests a battle with feelings of powerlessness or being trapped. The wrestling with the shadow and the failed attempts to switch on the lights represent a struggle to overcome your fears and regain control. The fear turning into anger may indicate a desire to assert yourself and resist being held back or manipulated. However, the limited effectiveness of your hits and the ongoing struggle reflect feelings of frustration and the difficulty in confronting and overcoming these inner conflicts. Ultimately, the dream reveals a fear of the dark or unknown and a desire for light, both literally and metaphorically. The apprehension to turn off the lights after waking up may signify lingering fears or anxieties from the dream that persist in your waking life. It may be beneficial for you to explore any underlying emotions or conflicts that are represented in the dream, as well as any potential sources of fear or powerlessness in your waking life. Consider reflecting on any areas where you may feel restricted or lacking control, and explore ways to address and overcome those challenges.