Really Something Else

Date: 8/7/2018

This dream was very long and has several parts, I’m only going to include the important parts. I was outside in a science class, all of the tables and chairs were on natural earth steps as to make an outdoor lecture hall kind of place. I was sitting with my friends and we weren’t learning anything. The teachers were taking people on breaks in groups. Me and my friends walked as a group with the teacher and we passed a mental institution on the way to the playground. There was an old woman sitting outside that seemed sort of creepy. We went to the playground but there were a lot of sharp edges and it seemed overall pretty dangerous looking. Over the course of the class we took several of these breaks and passed the institution. At some point I went through a doorway and was in a large field with rock walls surrounding it, with a large sinister looking castle across the field. I saw very reflective mirror like statues spread across the field, and felt like I had to collect them all. I heard a voice talking to me, my own voice, as if it was coming from beyond the field. It was saying that I was headed in a bad direction, and I needed to do something. I began collecting the statues scattered across the field. The first statue I saw my reflection as normal. The second I saw myself as seeming thinner and having bruises. As I collected more statues my reflection changed. I became really thin and frail, I had lots of cuts and bruises and burns all over my body. My limbs were breaking or becoming disfigured. My eyes became blood shot. By the last statue I had picked up, I saw blood pouring out of my eye sockets, my mouth was bloody, some of my bones were sticking out from being broken, my entire body was covered in injury, there was a dark chasm that had opened and split my chest in half and blood and guts poured out and there was tentacles wriggling out of the bloody hole. I was looking at this reflection and I heard the voice saying “you can’t sustain anymore damage” and “you have to change”. As I was staring at the reflection the sun was setting and the sky was turning dark red. I was standing in front of a tunnel that was dark inside and somehow I knew it lead to the institution. The voice told me I could see where I was headed and I could try it out. I said that it probably wouldn’t be that bad and I walked in the tunnel. I woke up (in the dream) in the institution and I had to take a bunch of medicine. It was pretty boring and I was the only patient there which felt really weird. I learned that prior to going there I had tried to kill myself. After eating breakfast or lunch or some meal I was told I had a visitor and I was taken to the visitor room. It was my (favorite in real life) teacher. She was upset and started asking me if I felt better and how the doctors were treating me here. I told her it was boring and I felt lonely. She hugged me and I started to remember things I forgot. I remembered getting medicine that made it so I couldn’t move or think well and feeling helpless. I remembered fighting with the doctors there. I started crying and telling her everything about the medicine and in that moment the people came in and told me my visit had to end and they dragged me out of the room. I woke up in real life after that but the dream feels unfinished, like I woke up to soon. It felt like i missed something important. I think about this dream a lot now.