Something I wasn’t expecting

Date: 9/12/2021

So I just recently woke up from this dream where I was at my childhood best friends house. It was weird to say the least cause we don’t really talk much anymore & she wasn’t there. Lol but almost everyone else was there. Our parents mostly. It was like a homeschool group meeting/4-H meeting or something like that. Something that most of us probably hadn’t had to attend in at least 10-15 years. Not only was that strange but my mom was there too. Now yeah she used to homeschool my siblings & I. But she’s now all about finding herself & definitely done with being a homeschool mom. I never thought I’d in any way see her at another event similar to this. Anyway, I don’t remember everything that was said. I mostly recall that my mom was trying to sign me up for this job where you’re basically a door greater at CVS. You stand/sit by a Christmas tree & hand out some type of pamphlets for something 🤷🏼‍♀️ I would’ve been fine with that. To be honest, at least temporarily but the other part of it is you go to Taco Bell & prepare food? I know, very weird combination right? 😂 lol Well of course I was thinking I don’t want to do the food part. Cause I’m not really good at cooking. Or at least don’t like it. And can’t remember how to prepare a lot of different dishes. There was a list of a ton you had to memorize. So when I got to speak, can’t remember if this was in front of everyone or afterwards. But I told her thank you for thinking of me. We could use some extra money, but I don’t think I’d be good at the Taco Bell part. Not only that, I’ve been thinking long & hard. Contemplating going back to college. I don’t want a job to get in the way of that again. Of course she was like “well you don’t have to do it full-time. And maybe you could tell them you’re only available for the CVS part. I do think you could handle both though. I’m just trying to help you out.” And I kindly told her I would consider it. But I’m definitely more focused on college in the future than more dead-end jobs. All this being at my old best friends house, I got a flood of memories from sleepovers & the many days we spent together there. So I asked her mom “she’s probably been moved out for years now, right?” And she said “yeah I would say you should see if you can visit her. But you probably wouldn’t have enough time this time.” Unfortunately I guess this was true. Even though I did want to see her. So I did what basically anyone would do when looking to contact a friend from the past. Went to Facebook/Messenger. It’s not like it’s actually been that long since we’ve talked. Been about since January of this year so 7 months. Not a really long time for us to go without chatting. At least since we haven’t lived in the same area. But practically every time we talk, it’s like there was never a gap. All I remember from the dream was that I took a minute to decide if I was going to just message her. Or call her. I’m not really one for talking on the phone. But I figured she would think this must be important if she called me. So I called her & this is where I kinda started waking up, I think. Think I left a message or something like that. Saying something along the lines of “hey, I was at your mom’s place for that meeting. Just gave me a flood of memories & of course I thought of you. I remembered all the fun times we had there. All the sleepovers & just chill times together. So I just had to check in with you & see how you’re doing. Would love to hear from you & hangout sometime soon. And I mean actually go through with it, not just us saying stuff like that then not doing it. I really need a girls night lol. If you can’t tell 😆 lol. Well talk to you later!” It felt kinda weird even though I don’t recall her answering. We hadn’t talked on the phone in probably 10ish years or more. Just messages once, twice a year sometimes less, sometimes more. But sometimes I’d feel that I was reaching out more than she was. So I’d back off. Don’t want to seem too needy, I suppose. But I always wanted to talk to her. I think it’s like that cause she’s made new friends since I moved & everything. Of course I have too but no one that really even got close to “replacing” her. So I guess I kinda hung on to that friendship. Even though it wasn’t as close as it used to be. I’ve probably overthought it a lot. Like maybe she doesn’t like me that much anymore. Maybe she doesn’t want to hear from me or thinks I should move on & find a friend that’s closer. But there’s no way to truly know until you try reaching out to them. I suppose 🤷🏼‍♀️ by the way, this was a WEIRD dream for me. I don’t think I’ve ever dreamed about her family or her before. Or at least not in the past 10-15 years. But I feel that this is the universe/my intuition/God, whatever you wanna call it telling me that i should reach out to her. That no matter how I feel about it, maybe my negative thoughts aren’t true. Why would she have talked to me even once a year in the past few years anyway if she didn’t want to? People do what they want. Actually something else too, on her Facebook page or like the message thing you’re in when you message someone. It said something in a bio/status like “getting back into college in my 40s” or “getting into college in my 40s”. Mind you I don’t ever think she went to college so it’s probably the latter. She’s also not in her 40s… if I remember correctly she was born either the year before I was or in January of the year I was born(1992). So we’re in our late 20s. Definitely not 40s lol. That kinda got me thinking maybe this is some type of vision from the future? I don’t see why we’d ever get the 4-H or homeschool group back together that late in the game after everyone’s graduated & moved on, grown up, got their own families now. But I suppose it could be some kind of reunion 🤷🏼‍♀️ I really don’t know. But honestly I don’t see it happening. Especially in 10ish years! Lol but I guess I’ll have to wait & see 😯