A very strange dream with a stranger

Date: 10/10/2019

In my dream I was going to watch a horror movie in a theatre with some friends. It was this guy I’m really close with Nathan and this guy I actually don’t really know at all sebas. After the movie when we exited we were in the church I went to when I was still a Christian. This girl I’m friends with Arianne was there and she was talking me into going to a “fun” bible study that was about to start. Nathan was like “no way I’m out!” but sebas was like “why the heck not?” and my ex boyfriend (who I was apparently with again in my dream) was there to pick me up. I told him he didn’t have to come but he did and acted like I had dragged him along. The bible study room was inside of my social studies (my worst subject) high school classroom. Sebas set next to me but my ex (dream boyfriend) awkwardly sat a few seats away. We were all like taking notes or writing an essay or something. I commented that I used to go to this church, and the leader of the bible study asked me if I thought I was going to start again. I gave this long rant, where I stuttered a lot, saying that I was raised super religious but I never felt gods presence. I would pray so much but it just felt empty and fake. “You didn’t sound very articulate” Jamie said to me. Arianne was staring at me so intensely the entire time I spoke and now she said “well I hope you’ll try again because he’s always here. and he loves you so much.” At one point I suddenly remembered my father was babysitting my daughter and I had been gone a really long time. I looked out the window and it was pitch black, very late at night. When I called him I could see him and he was in my childhood home. All of the lighting was so orange and golden. He told me it was okay and she was sleeping, and he had left her with my mother where she could sleep overnight. After it ended Jamie was gone and I was in the church hallway with sebas. He invited me to spend the night at his house and I quickly accepted. I jumped up on his and wrapped my legs around him. I realized I was falling in love with him, and decided I’d leave Jamie. Suddenly I remembered my irl boyfriend Braden, but in my dream I thought we had broken up. I felt so sad. There was a mirror behind me and I was sebas and I, i was wearing black yoga pants and I thought my booty looked cute but kind of small. I thought if sebas can accept my body however it is, then I’ll finally be able to as well. In my dream sebas still lived this his parents who were extremely old and elderly. Their bedrooms were even connected which was so uncomfortable. I was like O guess i’m not getting laid tonight :( lmao