Dying isn't so bad

Date: 10/27/2018

Soooo it's a normal day in my family house, until a news report on TV states that a dark cloud is passing through the UK and that it's charged state is deadly so we are advised to stay inside. Survival mode kicks in and I start going through the house locking all windows and sealing them with tape on the sides. I ask my brother to come downstairs, that it's an emergency and he moans and stays in his room which annoyed me. I went downstairs where my parents were and talked through a basic plan, no one goes outside and we should get all the tinned and packet food out and also fill as many containers as we can with water before it cuts out. They seem like they're not listening. I lock the front door and seal it. I see a really thick dark cloud on the mountainside making its way here. Then my mother opens the backdoor to let my two dogs out. I'm like WHAT THE FUCK MAM and closed the door with them still outside. She gets pissy with me saying they have to pee. I tell her that she's an idiot and ask if she heard what I told her two seconds ago in a very clear, concerned voice. Next door had a cloud in its garden, and I made the sad decision to lock the back door. I watched on as the cloud with small electric flicks of light in it passed over my dogs and left their faded, thinned bodies on the patio. I stared at their dead expressions. I look back at my mother who doesn't speak. "See what you did?! You let them out and didn't listen to me and now they're dead" I got so angry with her just because she didn't listen, because it could've all been prevented if she had just LISTENED to me. I tell her something that's really important, that I'm really worried about, and plan methodically to help the situation and she ignores me. It hurt so badly because I feel like a less extreme version of this happens in reality, where she doesn't listen, doesn't even care. Another cloud passes over but this time it was shaped vaguely like an anthropomorphic cat. I start sealing the backdoor with tape as one that looks like a human shadow races up to the glass and slaps his hand against it. I backed away worried. I head to the kitchen because no one decided to follow my advice and sort out the food. Looking through the window I see a bomb drop onto the mountain and the shockwave heading towards us. I brace myself for the force. It doesn't break the windows but travels through. It felt like wind but with no substance to it? It felt dull. We all survived, I thought it would have more impact, and I took a breath of relief. I then saw the heat wave from the bomb. It was quick. This was the day I die. I held onto the counter and got enveloped in flames. All I saw was burning, not even objects, just orange, yellow, and black flickering. I felt it, the burning. It hurt but like a slow pain, almost like a peaceful hurt, it's hard to describe. Then I let go of everything and the light left my vision, or maybe it was what my mind decided to show me, and everything went black and I stopped feeling.

AI generated interpretation This dream appears to be reflecting a deep sense of frustration and helplessness in your waking life, particularly in relation to feeling unheard and unappreciated by your family members. The scenario of a deadly cloud passing through and the subsequent events can be interpreted as symbolic representations of your perceived lack of control over situations and the feelings of betrayal by those close to you. Locking the windows and doors to protect yourself and your family symbolizes your instinct for self-preservation and a desire to secure safety in a chaotic and threatening environment. Your frustration with your family members not listening to your warnings and disobeying your instructions reflects your sense of being undermined and disregarded in real life, which is causing you emotional distress. The tragic event of your dogs being killed due to your mother's disregard for your warnings could represent the fear of losing something valuable or dear to you due to the actions or negligence of others. This loss further intensifies your feelings of anger and resentment towards your mother for not taking your concerns seriously. The moment of your own death in the dream may symbolize a desire for escape or release from the emotional pain and stress you are experiencing in your waking life. The acceptance of your impending death and the experience of burning, while painful, could also be interpreted as a form of catharsis or release from the pent-up emotions and frustrations you are holding onto. Overall, this dream suggests a need for assertiveness in expressing your thoughts and feelings to your family members and setting boundaries to ensure that your needs and concerns are acknowledged and respected. It may be helpful to address these underlying emotions and issues in your waking life to find a sense of resolution and peace within yourself.