Calm.

Date: 10/12/2019

I had the most beautiful dream last night... It was startlingly real. I opened my eyes to see a wide, open field. The grass was pale green, not vibrant, but soft. It felt smooth and not itchy under my fingers like normal grass; it was dry but almost fluffy. It felt comfortable under my bare feet, and when I wiggled my toes I felt cool dirt beneath the grass, but it wasn’t muddy and it didn’t get my feet dirty. It was just comfortable. The clearing spread out all around me, in an almost-perfect circle. Trees and bushes formed an obvious wall around the sides, and straight ahead of me there were some tall, stony cliffs. Sunlight streamed through in rays that looked like they could be touched, golden and bright. It smelled like the plants do right around springtime, that warm sweet scent. It felt warm, but not hot. The sun hit my face in just the right way, not blinding me, just making my cheeks warm and my hair glow. Weeping willows draped down into the clearing and their soft moss colored branches brushed my shoulders softly as I walked forwards, silent. I could hear them rustle, that’s how real it was, and birds chirped occasionally but mostly it was just the silence of a slight breeze and the breathing forest. No cars, no sounds of other people; silence. It was peaceful. I went towards the cliffs where there was a conveniently sized rock, smooth and flat. I sat on top of it and closed my eyes. The rock was warm from the sun and felt good underneath of me. The breeze gently blew my hair out of my face and cooled me down. All around me the sounds of trees rustled and blew. My mouth tasted of cherries, not strongly, just slightly, as if I had been eating fruit beforehand. My hands were steady for the first time in a while. And, for once in what seems like forever, I was not anxious at all. In fact, I was happy. I was really happy. I was at peace. When I woke up I still had that feeling, although it faded to a sort of nostalgia which left me confused and longing for that clearing where I knew everything was going to be okay. I hope I get to visit the clearing again, in my dreams. It was a nice change. It reminded me a lot of a dream I had where I was at a wedding in a similar clearing, although I’ve never been anywhere like this place before in real life.