The long Haul

Date: 10/26/2018

Today I truly tested my "limits" or really what im limited to at this moment, I had the utmost confidence in my ability to project and todays projection was the product of that. I lie down and phase out which took I would say 5 minutes because i was playing around trying different frequencies and speeds of the vibrations which actually did have a cool effect on my mental focus, if they were fast vibrations my thoughts were more abstract and alien but if i slowed them down to a crawl I noticed i started thinking about things I did today and or what I will do tomorrow. I heard speaking and whispering and I started feeling my heart beat at around the 5 minute mark and I noticed I had enough control to either decide to keep going or leave the body by moving the astral one. The physical around me felt more numb and less sensory input was involved the more I separated from the physical and i start to rise up like a vampire in a coffin, I'm immediately accompanied with something in the corner of my room and im still unsure whether it was malicious or docile but it's (I would say head but it didnt have physical form it was more like its attention was raised as it saw me becime aware of its presence) it sees me and starts to come towards me either out of curiosity or something but i was extremely cautious and put my hand out to signal it to stay where it was but my movement made it even more intrigued so I rejoined the physical and switched the position i was sleeping in. I was a little upset I keep hearing that i need to embrace things that come my way but I still get startled very easily and I miss out on things and beings who knows what they could've had to share, i react before I need to and that bothered me so I astral projectrd again, another 5-10 minutes later but this time it was different, a lot different. My consciousness was on a higher scale where I was the most aware I've ever been in an out of body state and it was also as vivid and clear as they are, I wasn't in my normal glowing humanoid form but instead it was sort of like I was just pure consciousness, there was no traveling, I was already there consciously, I was also whatever "there" was, I remember feeling and expressing not just my (as in who i am personally) consciousness but all that I ever was and then some. I saw what it was like to be my higher self so to speak and seeing the chess board play out, I was no longer the pawn but the whole board and the whole game. I remember thinking about my friends and found that most of them were in this bubble if consciousness too, I always theorized that they communicate or at least aware if each other in some form throughout our lives and this experience confirmed it, i felt the warmth and love in my friends and family that goes through all of us unknowingly and it was the most enjoyable feeling in the world, i got the percept that this is just a slither of the totality of it all, I couldnt handle much more i would've lost myself in it therefore for now i understand my limit but im pretty sure it lessens every run out of the physical. Even then with the amount of control and back up i have i can still do a lot of things. This knew found knowledge had a detrimental effect when I finally returned I kept some of that awareness with me, I could feel the blood through my vains flowing throughout my body, the pathways in the brain communicating with each other to give understanding to the extra sensory input, and probably the most permanent is the connection I feel and still feel with everything around me, another step closer to source though i feel like I will soon be limited by speech since even now as i explain this projection it lacks the ultimate feeling im trying to put into words