Fun and Fear

Date: 8/6/2018

I decided to astral project today though it took a long time since i had to upgrade which i did. its like getting wrapped in plasric over and over but the plastic is actually condensed energy that allows me to do all this stuff, i call it the nexus hense my name So about i would say 40 minutes ago i was flying and looking at some trees in central park, it was day time and i was staring these trees down because of how real they were, they indeed were real it was probably one of my first experiences seeing and feeling something that was more real than real, i cant explain it correctly its like trying to describe what the color red is to a born blind person. I remember ending up in my long hallway as i run on the side of the wall and eventual upside down, by the time i got to the end of the hall i started remembering where i actually was and so i start to head back. i decide to head back to my sisters room in queens (where my body actually was) but i didnt 100% phase back into the physical and everytime i would move around it would be my astral body moving and the only reason i knew this is because i was floating around in her small room, looking down on her watching videos one her laptop. it reminded me of when i thought i had died and i couldnt reconnect with the physical until a little later, the difference being i wasnt scared like before or atleast not yet. I start losing consciousness and i hover an inch or two over my body though i didnt click back in yet i have visions of my mother which is understandable, im in her house but at the time she wasnt home, my percept tells me to get out of there for some reason and then i slowly start to realize whats going on, it wasnt my mother, it was that demon think thats been tormenting me since my childhood. i know i have about a minute before she comes for me and i try phasing out of thr room but i could barely do it, its weird i would go through the window but something in me wouldnt let me just leave, i had to face her and i knew that. i turn around and go through the door (ofcourse i can go through the door) and she's there waiting for me, standing there and she has my mothers face which she always doea but it usually becomes a disturbed version of it, sge is like 4 inches taller than my actual mom who is like 5ft 2 and she was wearing all black and when we stared at each other she then pounced on me and the second she pounced on me her illusion of my mom faded and i saw her for what she was, a monster, i wasnt necessarily frightened this time, i mean i was half afraid and half ready to face fears but when she pounced on me my first instinct was to get back into the physical which i did.