moving in with my abuser

Date: 12/27/2016

In my dream, my mom randomly decided that we should all move into some giant old house in the middle of Alaska with the guy who sexually abused me when I was a child. Shortly after we got there my phone mysteriously went missing and I had no way to call anyone for help if stuff started happening and I was just really scared. My dad and my grandpa came to visit a lot but for some reason they never really noticed how scared I was or how fucked up the situation was. I was very alone. I started having a panic attack in my dream and then I woke up literally mid panic attack and I couldn't breathe at all. I had multiple dreams about him like this all night and I woke up distraught and panicked many times. Once my friend woke me up because I was screaming. I don't remember any of the other dreams I just remember that they were about him. Now I just feel icky and gross and sad and I don't know why.