lonely burner event

Date: 4/23/2016

went with dan on road trip to cali burner event we went on a bus dan is kinda upset with me and seems to not want to talk with me much he knows alot of people here and he chats with them i dont know alot of these people which makes me a little nervous but its ok i decide that its fine i'm just going to enjoy time alone and not worry i know a few of them on the bus, we arrive and i quickly grab my things to get off the event is in a very old building there is a stage it is all set up for the next event, a conference on auto industry cooperation (all the car companies will work together) pamphlets on the floor. i go outside i see someone who looks like rick i go up to him-- i can chat with him but its not him, oh well then someone i know (david solana?) comes running up to me as if he was looking for someone to talk to as if he needed to and the thought ran through my head so many people feel lonely and awkward at these events like its difficult to spend time alone... reminds me of steve's girlfriend and how they were constantly making out at catalyst, and then later steve complained to me that she's too needy and clingy... i dont want to be like this i also wont be stuffing drugs up my nose to help me feel more at ease i will enjoy the time spent alone