Dawn takes my baby

Date: 6/27/2024

first off i haven’t been writing down a lot of dreams lately - they have been like thatttt exciting but idk i should’ve been. so here goes. I was pregnant, I had a little baby bump and I was gonna give birth soon. well i was scared and I asked the people next door that if I needed help for just one night because I was to unwell directly after giving birth that they would help me. mainly there was an older lady whom I wanted to take the care. So i wake up one morning with vomit on my hands and I could smell it and i knew that I had given birth the night before and lost my memory of it from the trauma. So i went next door to ensure that in my state I had still gotten the baby to them. well they said I had but somehow they looked disappointed in me too. i was like wow well I just fell right asleep after and forgot everything, can i have my baby? they said they’d given it to my mother as they somewhat glared at me. so i go back home across the driveway and im like mom.. I gave birth, where is the baby? i felt sheepish as i knew she wanted to be more involved in the process and i had someone kept a lot of the pregnancy form her. she felt like an evil villain in this moment. she said i could not have the baby because I was too irresponsible for having given it to the neighbours and it shows i don’t deserve it. so she won’t give me my baby and she has hidden it in the crack of the wall. she says come now we’re leaving to a family event. i threw my highlighter at the door and shattered it as she was about to walk out of it. i threw sometning small and aimed for the door just to startle her but not hurt her. i felt i was playing a balancing game of not wanting to seem too unhinged but letting her know i was angry and meant business. well she looked shocked but just walked out with her nose up. i was like !!!! GIVE IT TO ME and started throwing some more things. i was enraged and very stressed. i really wanted to see my baby i could picture it in my head. i tried to explain i just needed to rest last night and i didn’t want to wake you and they had offered to watch it!!!! i couldn’t help passing out after the birth. but she would hear none of it and she left. i was devastated. the dream fast forwarded some time and I was with sam and his young friend driving around going to high school, i vaguely recall soemtning about nearly a car accident. but i remember i was hanging out with these. kids to show my rebellion. i felt i was on an angsty mission. that was that