I love you

Date: 1/10/2017

Real life story: I like this boy who doesn't like me. We are friends even though I told him I liked him. He just had a lung collapse the other day, and I think I was incredibly nervous. I didn't eat dinner before going to bed, and I went to bed at 7:30, and woke up around 3:45. I also dyed my hair two days, but the color didn't come out right so I went to the store yesterday to pick up the right color. Dream: I'll start with the most vivid moment. I am in the kitchen making myself a sandwich. A marshmallow fluff and Nutella on whole grain bread (because I didn't eat dinner the night previous, and I didn't feel like cooking). My mom comes in and asks about the new gossip (because I do tell my mom that kind of stuff, it's a cool relationship!). What happened [earlier in the dream] that I told my mom: I was going to this party that my crush was throwing, but it wasn't at his house. I was the only one there and so we were waiting for others, making awkward small talk. Somehow I told him "I love you" (knowing he didn't like me back). I felt so humiliated by what I said I can't even remember if I look up at his face the next [dream time] half hour. He said he didn't feel the same and when people started to come he left to greet and chill with them. Next day at school [still dreaming]: Oh! I'll say my fav part! I was at my locker and at the far end of the hall there was my friend "S" calling out to me. She screamed, "fuck you Dani!" So I yelled back, ""suck dick "S"" we did this kind of banter for a little while longer and eventually I stopped it because I wanted to say something really funny/nasty to her. I called her over so I could tell her softer, as to not upset my principle (whose door is in the hallway that me and this girl were yelling). She comes over and asks what was so dirty you didn't want to say so loud? I said "imma fuck your eyes out so hard you won't see the next day.!" Somehow in my dream that made sense and she cracked up laughing on the floor. This was the kind of banter we did. Two straight girls yelling about fucking each other after an initial "fuck you". In the halls this guy is coming down. Tall, blonde, kind of looked like Austin Butler. (I've only ever seen him in the Carrie Diaries when that came out in 2013-so it was a little weird seeing his face. I didn't associate him with the guy though). This guy was named "J" for the purposes of the story in that I can't remember exactly. He comes up behind me and wraps his long arms around my small shoulders, and then rests his head on mine from above. "J" said, "hi beautiful" and I blushed. I turn around and kissed him, and I told him that it was fun doing just that. He lifts up his shirt all cocky and says, "that's for you later." Thinking he's sly and shit. I laugh and say "ookay". He gets his phone and and asks what I was doing later. I told him dying my hair again. He said he would prefer my natural brown color (although he has never seen me with it). I then go over to my friend who I used to be close with but we drifted apart, and asked her, "why do I want to dye my hair brown? Is it because I want to please "J"? She said it could be because I like him. I didn't know if I wanted to believe her because he seemed like such a cocky asshole, but I couldn't help feeling the way I did. My friend also said that it was good because I'd be getting over the boy from earlier in the dream. End of dream