waking dream

Date: 9/13/2017

so i had a waking dream, and i was crying. the dream was this, my mom suddenly came home from her vacation and she brought all this stuff and toys for my little sister. the old man she was with had hit the casinoes with another friend that is a girl thats a sugalera. so my mom coming home i had to cancel whatever plan i had. i was about to cancel it when my mom excitedly told me that she was pregnant. 8 days pregnant. in my mind i was like, how could you, how could you! we're taking care of mary. I AM TAKING care of her, and I'll end up taking care of that too. so suddenly i started to bawl and say things like financial assistance and hired help bigger apartment etc. and then i stormed out of the room. i was sitting inside like a toy store sobbing to myself and being guilty and hateful. when the rock was just around the corner and perusing some toys, and he heard me sobbing so he asked whats wrong and i spilled. and i was sobbing again and saying im a horrible daughter, i didnt even say congratulations. im supposed to be happy for her, how dare me for thinking of making my mom get rid of it. im a horrible person. and the rock was there placating me saying there there, shhh, your not a horrible daughter, its okay to feel like that. the rock was patting me on the back when i woke up sobbing and crying. seriously. what the hell dream?? fyi subconscious. my mom is menopaused so she literally can't conceive anymore. this is.. this is the epitome of weirdness brain. why do you like to betray me like this.