I have a child

Date: 4/25/2019

In real life I’m not a mother. I was told I couldn’t bear a child. Lately, for the past year or so, I have been having dreams of either being with children, saving a group of children, or holding my own child. I was hesitant to write these drama down because of how painful it is for me to write about them. My husband has two daughters and wants nothing to do with having anymore kids. I keep having dreams of being with children of having one; so I’m now wondering if this is a sign for a new chapter in my life or if it means something else: In this particular dream, I was holding a child who called me mommy. I picked him up and I am braced him in my arms. I recall feeling this emotion of unfailing love. I have never felt this feeling before. I felt so connected to this child. I felt the love that I’ve never felt before. And I did not want to let go. That’s all I can remember about the dream. Just holding him in my arms and the emotion that I felt. That morning when I woke up I felt a little lost. A little empty. It made me question my life a little bit. I’m living with the choices that I’ve made. I am grateful every single day for the life that I’m living. I get to help people find themselves and love themselves. So I’m wondering if my Dream is asking me if I’m doing the same for myself?