trying to survive some big bad

Date: 9/9/2018

don't remember start, 3rd person on roller coaster bad humorouslybad one want to get off but people won't let me keep making me go around finally do somEthing drastic to get off threaten people/person don't remember what for. in woods driving, world is not well swampy? find farm with sheep something about shearing them start to worry about the great big bad don't remember what that was, sickness?demons? other people? kid hanging in tree by arm see him when out in feild with sheep try to save him can't he freaks out falls dies gentleman comforts me in our mutual grief. drive away make it to Dallas farm don't remember connection GPA is there nobody else that I recognize or that is alive is there. other people handsome man lady with kids. we are trying to grow food to live off. my mom is there. somehOw another incident with a kid up on wall try to kick couch under him doesn't make it in time he falls dies is outside door on porch with Jacuzzi. dude that tried to save him also sits with him. I sit close to him. More people come, I am happy that there are more adults to help us work. lady with kids gets offended when I voice this I tell her I wasn't being offensive she just took it that way. people come I get frustrated kind of cooped up feeling. mom mentions I'm out of cigarettes. one of new people gets internet hooked up and tv I'm scared to explore not sure why I just start being on edge more people in house seems to bring more arguments and disagreements. arguments over sauces and condimentsperson advises mt mom of eating something. she said sshe did and I point out that it was hers she brought it in with her. see a video advertisment for a college and gpa mentions that they are troublemaker neighbors. realize Linda isn't there or freyja, weren't since I got there. want to ask gpa about it can't find him. with the college in mind I decide to explOre and scout surrounding areas for supplies. go into town which is more off a city. very decayed. people about fear of violence.I'm on foot avoiding any people our cats rolling by. want to get to a store but afraid of people in groups or "other" creature/person being sexually harassed thrown against fence called out person to stop. was thinking of places to get supplies.found old stash box of my things put them in backpack not good at retrieving essentials only. found a car. found other people who knew me I think Noel and a lady. we have two cars. meet shady people me and lady pretend to be lovers they don't trust us but know her a bit.I want to trade I don't remember what. I want to leave sit on a narrow carpeted staircase.