Lost Love

Date: 10/13/2020

Just had a quick recall of a dream from last night. I walked into a kitchen (was unfamiliar with the layout of the entire house, so I'm not sure where I was) and Justin was standing there. I think he was making a sandwich, but I could just be making shit up in my head. I was talking to him and he wasn't really responding to what I was saying other than nodding and grunting like men like to do lmao. I then asked him out right if he had lost interest in me. He nodded and didn't even look at me. I felt fine, which was surprising given everything I had sacrificed for him, only to have him lose interest in me the first moment we are given an opportunity to grow, and I walked out of the kitchen and I never looked back. I hope if this is the case in real life when he gets out, that I'll feel the same. I have so much love for him and I'm so in love with him that I just want him to be happy and if I'm in the way of that it would kill me. But enough of that shit cause this ain't a diary. Just wanna recall my dreams better so I can lucid dream about having sex w him anytime I want😂